ok, let me just start off saying that i work out on a regular basis, weights and cardio really hardcore, but back in highschool in 2001, i'm 22 by the way, i had anorexia, then after high school i got bulimia and fought that for a couple of years. every now and then i'll still make myself throw up, but not often at all. anyway, last night i woke up STARVING TO DEATH, and i got up in the middle of the night and ate one little snack cake and my boyfriend heard me and asked what i was doing. i said "nothing" he kept asking what i had been doing, i kept telling him nothing and that i was just going to the bathroom. he was like "no, were you throwing up, what were you doing??" i finally told him i ate a little snack cake. then he said, "you're like a little kid" you always say nothing when i ask what your doing". that really hurt my feelings. i just didn't want him knowing that i was eating a snack cake in the middle of the night cause it's embarrassing to me. i didn't tell him this though. should i tell him this????? i don't know. he is a few years older than i am, but i LOVE him with all my heart and soul. i don't want to lose him. do you think he is going to break it off with me because he thinks i was acting like a little kid when i kept telling him "nothing" when he was repeatedly asking me what i had been doing. its embarrassing for me to eat ANYTHING, ESPECIALLY SWEETS in front of people, it's been that way for a long time because everytime someone sees me eating they always come and poke their nose into my food and ask me why im eating that or what i am eating. i don't see why people can';t mind their own business about food. i actually wish humans didn't have to eat at all. anyway, should i explain this to him???? i don't know what to do!!!! someone please help me. thanks.

yep, i definitely think you should explain it all to him. just tell him everything! that way, you won't have all these secrets weighing you down anymore. plus, i'm sure he notices your moods and stuff, and then you two will be able to discuss issues like this. it seems like you're still really dealing with your ed (if you can't eat sweets in front of people, you have an aversion to food, etc.), so why not have him there to help you out? you might need to re-explain things a few times (guys sometimes don't get it right away), but i guarantee you and he will be closer if you tell him. so yeah, i say DEFINITELY tell him and then the two of you can work through this together.