I suffer from depression almost every freaking day. I know computers help distract the deression i have. and like 90% of the time playing videogames like counter-strike over the net help alot! its the competition, and the madness you get while playing, helps because at times you feel satisfy. I cought myself alot playing online and out of nowhere notice my depression went away. i would do this all the time, but at times i just can't pick up the keyboard. its been like hell inside of my head. one i stay inside for 2 months and didn't go out because i was so depress, and the longest i'm even shy to type it but it was 5 months! since the last couple of days of augest till early febuary i didn't go outside......
im the shy, non talking nice type person. but theres not alot to do. use to hang out with my cousins but they aren't being there self when they go out. always got to put on a mucho look when they go out. and i hate fake ppl, so i choose to stay away from them. i hate fake ppl. there like clones who live there life to impress ppl. and i don't want to end up dead because of a stupid thing they did out in the streets. so i stay inside on the compute. etc.. it was a wast of my life i can say. but i got to see about some jobs. and plan on moving out soon. so i guess the depression is really because of me not going outside. i found myself getting mad at my mom alot, she would come home and ask a question and i get all mad and anwser fast and go in my room. im hoping to have a job that requires me to travel, move around alot and meet alot of ppl. mabe in the intertainment business. it would be cool. boy life is crazy................................... ............

[This message has been edited by LibraLavaBoy (edited 03-27-2003).]

Hey there http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/wave.gif Sometimes I like to read, watch t.v, or sit outside if it's nice. (Minnesota is usually cold) But I found the best thing is when I go workout. It releives my tension for the time being. I just put on my headphones get myself pumped up and then workout for like 2 hours depending. Seems really long but you'd be suprised. Try it out, you seem willing to do anything. And hey remember this too,

"sometimes the people you expect to kick you when your down are the ones to help you get back up."

Hope this helps, take care;

Nicole http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/blob_fire.gif

I agre with nicole, doing exercise is great for depression also because your natural "high" chemicals kick in. your endorphins and this really helps to lift your mood. I also find if I stay in a lot my depression gets worse and I just find my thoughts focusing on the bad things about me and my life and this just makes me feel worse and then I get mad with those who are closest to me. They get all the anger.

I have had depression for about 12 years now and it really does go upand down.

hope you find the spark of motivation to do something to make yourself feel that bit better. It is in there, its just buried.