does anyone else find that they have no clue about how much is too much, in terms of eating. i think this may sound strange as i'm bulimic, but in trying to recover, i think i may be verging on anorexia, is this possible?
when i decided that i wanted to recover from bulimia, i managed to gradually cut down on my binges (although i still do it sometimes), but then started throwing up 'normal' food.. and now, i eat a lot less cos i'm afraid that i'll need to throw it up..
is there anyone else in the same position, cos today i ate some pasta, 1/2 a sandwich, an apple and a shortbread biscuit and feel as though i've eaten tonnes. i feel like i have lost an idea of what i should be eating each day. my therapist suggested a food diary, but i really haven't found this helpful at all.
please help
x x lil x x

Omg, I could have written your post! I was just saying the exact same thing to my psychoanalyst this morning. All I can say is I definitely understand how you feel.

What is happening to you is not uncommon. A lot of people trying to stop b/p end up starving themselves or eating very little so as not to purge and not to feel full so they won't have the urge to vomit. You need help because you will just end up trading on ED (bulimia) or another (anorexia) and that means you are NOT recovering. THe only way to beat bulimia is to eat normal health meals on a schedule. Don't eat large full meals but small ones frequently.

GoodGirlNow -
did your psychoanalyst recommend anything that would help?.. this is really beginning to get to me. it's like i'm trying so hard to beat bulimia that i'm almost developing another eating disorder..i can't deal with 2!
xxx lilly xxx

hey i don't really know the answer, but what about a nutritionist (ideally one that has worked with other people recovering from EDs before)? she/he would be able to help you set up some meal plans or whatever that would give you some structure and support realizing what "healthy" eating really is. it might help fend off the temptation to undereat, because you'd know you were following medically sound advice, you know? just a thought!

Hey lil ladee,

No, psychoanalysts dont give advice or tips, they help you identify the roots of your problems instead. I have just got back from today's session and I think it was quite an helpful one. It was hard as I left with teary eyes and mascara all over my face, but this is usually a good sign, as it means you really got to something there :)