hey i dont tthink i have an E.D but i dont know..im weighing myself about 10 times a day i dont know why but even after a i drink something im doing it, i have to know how many calories are in something before i eat it and whenever i eat anything i feel so guilty afterwards, thing is im nearly always hungry now but i still limit what i eat and i never have breakfast or lunch, maybe something smaller than a normal dinner. for about a week or two weeks now ive been doing anything to lose weight like running up and down the stairs for half an hour at a time or running on the spot or other things rediculous like that just trying to burn up as much calories as possible, whenever i eat anything i feel like my stomach has gained about 10 inches and i just feel really sick and ashamed at myself.

I dont think im even underweight but im 17, male, 5 foot 6 and im 113 or 114 lbs...so ashamed dont call me fat or overweight :(

I have a real lack of self confidence and self belief and i do get depressed alot too.

hey, well first of all you've come to the right place and i'm glad you're here. you don't think you have an ed, but i'll tell you honestly that i think you do. i think you have a VERY serious ed. it sounds like anorexia - the obsession with food and calories, not eating even when you're hungy, obsession with your weight and the scale, obsession with exercise, hating feeling "full," low self-confidence, thinking you're fat, shame and guilt after eating - i could go on but i think you get my point. ALL of these are indicators of anorexia and since you're experiencing them all to a debilitating degree, i would say that i think you are anorexic.

that being said, don't let it depress you or make you feel "strange" or unworthy, okay? it's a disorder of the mind and body; you aren't a "bad" person because you have all this going on. you're just sick. how long has this all been going on? i recommend that you IMMEDIATELY tell your parents, a teacher, a counselor or at the very least, a close friend. i know it's embarrassing and you don't want to but what you're doing now will kill you (i'm not exaggerating). eating disorders are MUCH easier to recover from the sooner you catch them. the longer they go on, the more ingrained the behavior and the mentality becomes and the harder it is to beat.

so it's great that you've recognized this is a problem and it's making you miserable, but now you need to take the next step and get help for it. you need therapy, a doctor and a nutritionist working together to help you recover. your parents can help you get this all put together. keep posting on these boards, but make sure you get help now. you are already underweight yet you feel fat, you're barely eating yet you're hungry, you feel miserable and can't think about anything else, right? talk to someone, i guarantee it will help.

thank you :)

im still calorie counting :( all im eating is chocolate and biscuits and bad food whenever i get really hungry, i want to get better because i remember how good it is to eat and i miss eating all the stuff i used to be able to without feeling really guilty like just a piece of toast.

i think to myself that if i ever lost weight then i would just eat meals and things until i got my weight back up again to how it was before but then when i weigh myself i get a good feeling and then i put off eating because i start thinking that ill be weak if i let myself put on the weight after ive just lost it.

I think im a bit lighter still from my last post but im not sure how to properly weigh yourself are you meant to just wear normal clothes that you wear around the house? should you wear shoes? a hoodie? wearing jeans and a t shirt im 110.4 pounds..is that an accurate weighing?

I keep thinking that if my weight goes back up to how it was even last week i will have failed and i will feel so ashamed with myself and ill get that horrible fat-feeling in my stomach again

"bad food" is a huge sign of an eating disorder. Classifying foods as either "good" or "bad" and feeling horribly guilty after eating a "bad" food.

I think you are worrying too much about how to weigh yourself. Adding shoes and a hoody are only going to give you a higher reading.

Are you planning on getting help? The sooner the better. Eating disorders can be controlled easier if you get help sooner.

hey i think im getting sorted out now..im definatly giving in to eating more, i got lots of chocolate and stuff thats piled up over the last weeks and such..i just want to ask around and see what types of food should i be eating now i mean obviously i dont want to pile on the pounds really quickly and i still wanna stay healthy so should i just stick to eating breads and pastas to fill me up or should i just try and eat bits of everything as normal as possible? or should i take this to a new forum place? sorry if this is in the wrong

If possible, you should see a nutritionist. They can help you know exactly what you should eat. It sounds like you are really trying, but I think it would be really helpful for you to have some guidelines to go by.

Keep trying, it sounds like you are doing great so far!