Hey guys!
I am in the middle of reading a book called Wasted. it is by Marya Hornbacher, and it is about her traumatic real story through Eating Disorders. It is the most moving book I have EVER EVER EVER read - it is sooooooo good!
It made me relate to her early stages in her ED, It made me gasp at how traumatic her ED becomes and it made me cry every time she discribes her feelings, the only thing it hasnt done yet is make me laugh - yet I have to say when you read this, there is nothing to laugh about, it is truly touching, moving and dead dead scary all at the same time.
I was reading it in my break at work yesterday - i just cant put it down - when my break had ended - I sat all threw work thinking about Marya, thinking "what is she going to do, what will happen? - I have to read on, she has to get better!" - i was panicking that she would die - even though i know she is alive writing the book - but!... oh I cant explain how amazing it is!

Has anyone read it as well?
If you havent I really recommend it

When you read it, and put it down for a while - it kinda makes you feel like you have a friend - like Marya is your friend! - wierd I know but so true!

Please reply
Love
X Hannie x

Yes, that was actually the first book on eating disorders that I read. I have since bought the book, but just reading your post makes me want to reread it again.

What other books on eating disorders have you liked? I tend to enjoy memoirs and practical recovery ones. For example, Learning to Be Me, a memoir of the author's 23 year battle with bulimia. I also loved the recovery oriented book Life Without Ed. I have others that I'd recommend too, but I thought I'd see which ones you liked first. :-)

have you read 'My Name is Caroline'? I've heard many good things about it and was thinking about getting it.

Hey, this is attually the first one I have read on eating disorders - tho I have also brougt, The Best Little Girl in The World, and To Die For... I also too really prefer memoirs - it just comes across so much more - realalistic and truthful!
-- thanks for giving me some ideas of what to read next - i love books, i just cant put them down lol!

X hannie X

The Best Little Girl in the World is an interesting read too. It shows a lot of the obsession.

My favorite books on eating disorders have to be:
Recovery books:
-Life Without ED
-Eating in the Light of the Moon
Memoirs:
-Second Star to the Right
-Learning to be Me
-Wasted

I especially recommend Life Without ED and Eating in the Light of the Moon. They make you think about your eating disorder in a completely different way.
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Hannie, I was just wondering...how old are you? and how long have you had an ED? And which disorder?

This book had a really strong impact on my eating disorder. Honestly,it put a lot of ED thoughts into my head. Recently I was reading a review on the book and an excerpt actually had a warning on it, saying it was likely to trigger ED thoughts in recovering anoretics. Kinda scary...It's a really gripping book and she tells it like it is. But it's a little too real for someone in recovery to read...

Hey ya'll,
Sorry it's been awhile since I've posted.
I'm going to definitely check out the books everyone recommended.

Has anyone ever ready Mercy for Eating Disorders? It's by Nancy Alcorn. Great book and I highly recommend it.

Lately, I've been gaining weight (gasp), adding yet another roll on my stomach (double gasp). I suppose it's because I'm eating a little more and exercising less. Though when I do workout now, I'm one of those 'all or nothing' personality types. I think nothing of setting the stairmaster on level 7 (to start out at) and wondering why I'm nearly passed out after 5 minutes. Needless to say, each and every time I do this to myself, I twist my knees horribly and for at least a few days thereafter, my knees, ankles, and fingers are very swollen. It's ridiculous and I know that, but at nearly 30 years old, it's become even harder to keep that extra weight off.
I'm 4"11 and weigh 99 lbs, but I'm telling you guys, I have some serious flab going on. Has anyone ever walked down a flight of stairs or something, and felt their stomach jiggle? Oy my God, that happened to me a few days ago--just when I thought I couldn't be more disgusted with myself, then I feel jiggle--can I say "eww".

I just started a new job, and so I've had to drop my therapy appts down from once a week to once a month. I hated to do that, but I'm on probationary status right now, and after 6 months of work, I've already told my Supervisor that my "standing medical appts" would get bumped up to every other week. Is that wrong of me, or is that fair? Yes, I feel cheated, and I don't feel strong enough to keep myself in check, but I've got to be determined. And my therapist said she would do a phone consult with me every Friday just to check in to see how I was doing. Which, is usually the afternoon we meet. Trying to practice the habit of going back to my weekly addictions support group that meets every Friday night--just feel like I need that to keep myself in check, you know?

Anyway, sorry to blab. Suppose I just needed to get that out.
You guys are amazing and I credit your support and encouragement in my continuing recovery.

In His mercy,
Misti

misti- i so understand you on that all or nothing stuff. ive been trying to get myself out of it but its hard. it's like, when i exercise, i'll work really hard at it, but then i can go a week without doing anything. Probably not the best! I need to get an even mix....

Yeah, people here should know that "Wasted" can be really triggering to some people. For me it was a positive book, for the most part. Reading her story made me feel less alone. But I know that when I started to slip and wanted to be triggered, wanted to get the momentum going, I turned to that book as well. It might not be something that people who are still struggling in recovery would want to read.

I've read it more than once.
Not only is a very moving memoir about going through anorexia/bulimia, but it is also wonderful, great literature. Very well written.
And it shows the dark side of EDs very well... wait until you get to the very last chapter. Very deep. Makes you want nto fight your own ED VERY MUCH!!!

Kathrin

Hey,
I can see sorta how you mean for Wasted to be triggering, but for me it just showed a deep ED how it is - realistic - it didnt cut out some parts because they could be controversal or wateva - it was just like "this is what happened for me, this is how I felt, what I did, how my ED took me over, its what it was like for me, myself, as an inividual"
I havent got to the last chapter yet hehe so shhh!! hehe - but i really think it is an amazing book
and I agree with anterrabae, it definatly make you feel less alone!

mandabear - I am 16 and have had this ED - Eating problem thing - for since febuary 05! - I have, i guess more or less, anorexia, though with alot of bulimic tendancies! tho i havent been properly diagnosed by a doctor or anything. Its very confusing at the moment for me!

Love you all
X Hannie X

was february '05 just a bad month? i just remember that month really well. i was having such a hard time and just simply stopped eating. that was almost 2 years into my ed though.

hmmm... maybe there was something that tilted the universe and it affected people with ED's lol!
I dunno what it was with that month and me - i think everything had been building up and up and up - and then that month I just decided that enough was enough - and i dealt with it by "not" eating, hiding food -and all that jazz!

Anyhoo gotta run
Speak soon

X Hannie X