I never want another day like today. Everything gone wrong or maybe it's the way I saw it. But isn't that what anxiety does? I mean, every thing did go wrong the minute I left the house. Is it the mixture of all depressive symptoms all coming together? I knw it's not healthy to 'not' go out, but surely it's the feeling 'safer' bit that keeps us indoors. I do think sometimes that 'there's a whole world out there, why can't I be a part of it, or why have I been put on this earth for what reason. I even through this 'stage' of depression try to think that eventually, one day I'll have the answer.
Last year I detached myself from my family and other people who were around me. I soon realised that they had hindered any chance of a recovery as most of them were either on drugs(not prescribed) or drinkers. I'm not innocent, yes I did dabble but used to think that there must be another way. For a while I did see some things, past and present a bit clearer. With the help of my therapist I even managed to put an end to a relationship that had gone on and off for 27 yrs. So, why am I so negative when, I thought I'd cleared the way for recovery? debdough

Hi,

Some days are worse than others, and it does sound like you have anxiety and depression. Many of us have both. Are you on a AD?? You mentioned seeing a therapist and I hope you are still seeing him/her.

There is always the chance that you just had a bad day and that's what I'm hoping for. The road to recovery is a long one, but I think you know that. I wish I had more good things to say to make you feel better. Keep us posted on how you're doing please. Take Care.......Connie

Hi! I have all those. I can relate to what you are going through. I’m recently crossing a terrible moment in life and I’ve been feeling like that for almost a month. I’m trying to get better but I know it won’t go away until I get good news. Even though my orthodontist told me that my problem can be corrected I still worry it may not be corrected at all… just to give you an example. I just got a surgery to a lump and I think the scar looks horrible and that he’s going to have to repeat it anytime soon…
So I mean, try to be positive about things. Don’t be like me.
Good luck,
Joanna

Thanks for replies. I'm sure you are right, it is a long road to recovery, but don't you jist wish you could just jump out of it and get to where you are happy and settled. Pigs might fly!!!! Yes I'm on Lithium,AD'S and Larazipam but, the bit that gets me is that it's what other people have treated you like that gets us into this mess and we're left with the horrendous journey of not really knowing where we're going. HOPE THIS MAKES SENSE TO SOME OF YOU. I have got to go now. Speak later.