I want to say something else a pain I will never understand I understand being asked if I was a man was not a compliment I am sorry for the ones that feel this way about being ugly... ok so I have a few features here and there that are attractive big deal... I still don't like the way I look.. I came back here as I said to be supportive but every post I have posted has been cut down.. saying I don't understand and I never will... believe me its not much of a compliment when a man wants to be intimate with you.. oh so he found me attractive well.. maybe I am but maybe you guys need to let others help you.. I am here for that..
god bless you all,

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swimming dolphin

Renee,
I posted to you in the other thread to if you did not see it.

Like I said before I cried when I read that other post. I can only imagine how bad that made you feel.
And here is the part that I have trouble even saying …

I did the same thing to a girl once.
I was not even trying to be mean or anything like that.
I truly did not know any better. Maybe I am stupid or because of my social anxiety I do not look at people very well. I was young at the time maybe 13-14 … very immature.

Anyway that has stuck with me for almost 20 years now. Believe me that I hate myself and I wanted to die myself for hurting another person like that. I will never forget how bad I felt and will never stop feeling bad for that.

I am so sorry.

I know that you do understand what others are feeling
And your posts are appreciated.

Like I said in the other post I would not know about what it feels like when another person wants to be intimate with you. And I do not think Gar Fla knows either.

But I do assume that it can be a compliment, and that it can feel good?

This may sound silly, but I have often thought if I were a female that things could be easier.
At least I might be “used” by men. At least I would have some intimacy.

But I do not know. Most likely I would be alone and a failure as a woman just like I am as a man.
When you do not have the experience, I think is easy to have thoughts that might not be quite right (ok crazy thoughts)

[This message has been edited by ffsmith (edited 07-06-2003).]

Hi Dolphin,

I'm so sad right now that you're hurt. There is a lot of pain here on this board, and I think we have to bear with each other sometimes because that pain will occasionally come out as anger when we feel misunderstood. The emotions go wild.

I'm still not comfortable telling a lot about myself, but I'll say that I identify with what you've said.

Thank you for the "God bless you." I'll take every one I can get.

Please keep posting.

Love, Warped