Tenade
03-19-2006, 03:30 PM
Hello :)
I have PTSD, MPD, PVFS and siatica. I'm looking for a safe place to discuss healing from trauma and pain. I hope I'm in the right place.
Thankyou for reading :)
Tenade
I have PTSD, MPD, PVFS and siatica. I'm looking for a safe place to discuss healing from trauma and pain. I hope I'm in the right place.
Thankyou for reading :)
Tenade
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dwallech
03-19-2006, 04:29 PM
HI,
I have post traumatic stress disorder and only found out after seeking help as I was having bad dreams and always running away in my dreams from a person without a face.
I thought they would tell me I was crazy, but I was given a book to go home and read. I don't recall the name of the book but it explained PTSD in detail.
Once I knew what I had it helped, but it is still there with certain triggers. I will not sit with my back to a door and I won't tolerate someone coming up behind me without me knowing it much less touching me unannounced.
I do a lot better since I understand what it is and what triggers it. I had guns held to my head and my life threated every day during a very difficult marriage.
I had a police escort to get me out and never looked back, but some of the scars such as PTSD did result. I am coping with it but it takes a lot of healing. I know it will never go away but have finally come to terms with it.
How are you doing? Have you sought out help? Just knowing I wasn't mental was a big relief as I figured they would just put me in a looney bin and throw away the key. That is why I unfortunately didn't seek help for a long time. I was glad when I finally got the help I so desperately needed.
Hope this helps. Let us know as we are here to support you and your needs!!! :)
I have post traumatic stress disorder and only found out after seeking help as I was having bad dreams and always running away in my dreams from a person without a face.
I thought they would tell me I was crazy, but I was given a book to go home and read. I don't recall the name of the book but it explained PTSD in detail.
Once I knew what I had it helped, but it is still there with certain triggers. I will not sit with my back to a door and I won't tolerate someone coming up behind me without me knowing it much less touching me unannounced.
I do a lot better since I understand what it is and what triggers it. I had guns held to my head and my life threated every day during a very difficult marriage.
I had a police escort to get me out and never looked back, but some of the scars such as PTSD did result. I am coping with it but it takes a lot of healing. I know it will never go away but have finally come to terms with it.
How are you doing? Have you sought out help? Just knowing I wasn't mental was a big relief as I figured they would just put me in a looney bin and throw away the key. That is why I unfortunately didn't seek help for a long time. I was glad when I finally got the help I so desperately needed.
Hope this helps. Let us know as we are here to support you and your needs!!! :)
Tenade
03-20-2006, 06:43 AM
>> I have post traumatic stress disorder and only found out after seeking help as I was having bad dreams and always running away in my dreams from a person without a face.
I get triggered, night terrors, flashbacks. I dont recognise faces intime and even see other faces on people's faces. Try to run away. Unfortunately I've started screaming even more than the silent screams that went on. I screamed when I was with my nurse and even saw the scream.
>> I will not sit with my back to a door and I won't tolerate someone coming up behind me without me knowing it much less touching me unannounced.
I cant bear somebody behind me, especially touching me when its not okay to. I get back spasms from all the hard jabbing that went on. I feels painful when somebody is touching me. I can also sense their intentions.
>> I am coping with it but it takes a lot of healing.
I am interested in healing. Im not religious so I dont mean hands on healing. I mean kind words. Talking and writing about pretty things.
>>How are you doing?
I cope better when Im not around bad behaviour.
>>Have you sought out help?
When the time is right theres a ptsd therapist I can go to. I have a nurse I see every week. But the health professionals misdiagnosed me. They do say I have ptsd but they also say I have something else - Im a multiple and they call it something awful, horrible. They give me meds for mania or something I dont have. Respiridone injections. Im still not calm enough at times and dont know what that med is actually treating.
I tried phoning a rp counsellor but theres a 4 month waiting list and she confused me as to that.
I have ptsd from repeated rp and somebody I stayed with beat me up.
I still havent identified the tripple events that started this whole thing off.
What topics do you find kind, pretty and healing?
Thankyou for the welcome :)
I want to share healing words. I do have a need for that.
Tenade
I get triggered, night terrors, flashbacks. I dont recognise faces intime and even see other faces on people's faces. Try to run away. Unfortunately I've started screaming even more than the silent screams that went on. I screamed when I was with my nurse and even saw the scream.
>> I will not sit with my back to a door and I won't tolerate someone coming up behind me without me knowing it much less touching me unannounced.
I cant bear somebody behind me, especially touching me when its not okay to. I get back spasms from all the hard jabbing that went on. I feels painful when somebody is touching me. I can also sense their intentions.
>> I am coping with it but it takes a lot of healing.
I am interested in healing. Im not religious so I dont mean hands on healing. I mean kind words. Talking and writing about pretty things.
>>How are you doing?
I cope better when Im not around bad behaviour.
>>Have you sought out help?
When the time is right theres a ptsd therapist I can go to. I have a nurse I see every week. But the health professionals misdiagnosed me. They do say I have ptsd but they also say I have something else - Im a multiple and they call it something awful, horrible. They give me meds for mania or something I dont have. Respiridone injections. Im still not calm enough at times and dont know what that med is actually treating.
I tried phoning a rp counsellor but theres a 4 month waiting list and she confused me as to that.
I have ptsd from repeated rp and somebody I stayed with beat me up.
I still havent identified the tripple events that started this whole thing off.
What topics do you find kind, pretty and healing?
Thankyou for the welcome :)
I want to share healing words. I do have a need for that.
Tenade
ZV7
03-21-2006, 05:15 AM
I am a Vietnam veteran with combat related PTSD. The acknowledgement of PTSD is relatively new; before the 1980’s most doctors said that there was no such thing as PTSD, and allot of people, veterans and non-veterans, suffered without treatment. When the psychological community finally recognized it they called it “Delayed Stress Syndrome,” but that name did not stick for long, and today it is called PTSD. A syndrome is a group of symptoms, and PTSD has multiple symptoms. All PTSD cases are not treated the same way, and in my opinion the Veterans Administration National PTSD Center in Pal Alto, California is at the forefront of treatment approaches, but even if a person is not a military veteran there are lots of civilian social workers and mental health people who specialize in PTSD. In many ways PTSD is a form of grieving; it is a reaction to a sudden impact on the way we used to be; it takes/rips something from us, and this is the grieving aspect. We are emotionally, and usually suddenly, ripped apart by an intrusive brutal revisiting past event.
I learned meditation, breathing techniques for quieting my mind, it took a long time for me to learn it, just sitting in silence, quiet inside, but it helps me a great deal. It helps me center my feelings and dissolve thoughts before they develop. Topics which I find healing are about the human heart, learning how to love myself, embrace and forgive myself, and topics on personal growth. I also like to write poetry and find that very healing.
So here’s an example:
There’s magic in every moment, there’s a treasure inside my life. I am inspired to let go to my heart, and feel something deeper inside. To find out what lye’s beyond my mind, the secret of silence within. Not bound by time or tangled up in words, I’ve found a freedom there, it’s a lover’s world. Carry my spirit into the realm of the heart, where the mystery ends and the magic begins. I’ve been shown another way to see, with love and dignity. I am grateful.
Poetry always helps me; but know that it’s perfectly alright to cry, in fact when you’ve been hurt, its’ necessary to cry; cry for that part of you which hurts, and be gentle with yourself, go at your own pace, for even this too will pass, and while you may never be the same again, nonetheless, healing will come. :)
I learned meditation, breathing techniques for quieting my mind, it took a long time for me to learn it, just sitting in silence, quiet inside, but it helps me a great deal. It helps me center my feelings and dissolve thoughts before they develop. Topics which I find healing are about the human heart, learning how to love myself, embrace and forgive myself, and topics on personal growth. I also like to write poetry and find that very healing.
So here’s an example:
There’s magic in every moment, there’s a treasure inside my life. I am inspired to let go to my heart, and feel something deeper inside. To find out what lye’s beyond my mind, the secret of silence within. Not bound by time or tangled up in words, I’ve found a freedom there, it’s a lover’s world. Carry my spirit into the realm of the heart, where the mystery ends and the magic begins. I’ve been shown another way to see, with love and dignity. I am grateful.
Poetry always helps me; but know that it’s perfectly alright to cry, in fact when you’ve been hurt, its’ necessary to cry; cry for that part of you which hurts, and be gentle with yourself, go at your own pace, for even this too will pass, and while you may never be the same again, nonetheless, healing will come. :)