bluesnowflake
03-22-2006, 05:42 PM
my week is not going so well...
I am bipolar, and take respirdal (just lowered to .25 rather then 1 mg or mcg or whatever it is) and effexor (150mg)
monday I saw my endocronologist (I have hypothyroidism) about my very high levels of cortisol. He pretty much told me there are limitations to what medicine can do and I have to live with what I have.
tuesday I had a performance appraisal at work, and despite a decent raise, the apprasial was immersed in terrible things about me.
Today, I went to herbal magic (since october I have lost 40 lbs) and in the last 3 months, I have lost only 10 of that.
I just feel crummy. Life is going to *****. I hate how little control I have over my moods and my typical reaction to life's hard spots- which would be smoke more weed.
I'm in 3rd year honours psychology, maintaining an A average. The last two weeks of school are on me and I have major presentations that are due and I haven't started them yet, which is unusual for me.
I feel at such a loss, I don't smile. I don't laugh. I cry a lot. I know I am going deeper into depression, but my psychiatrist is not worried. My endo thinks I am fine. My gp is on vacation and tries as hard as he can to find good specialists that will help me. Another doctor, a surgeon that deals with my scans (RAI uptake in august for thyroid cancer) is the most concerned but the least able to help.
Where do I go now?
I am bipolar, and take respirdal (just lowered to .25 rather then 1 mg or mcg or whatever it is) and effexor (150mg)
monday I saw my endocronologist (I have hypothyroidism) about my very high levels of cortisol. He pretty much told me there are limitations to what medicine can do and I have to live with what I have.
tuesday I had a performance appraisal at work, and despite a decent raise, the apprasial was immersed in terrible things about me.
Today, I went to herbal magic (since october I have lost 40 lbs) and in the last 3 months, I have lost only 10 of that.
I just feel crummy. Life is going to *****. I hate how little control I have over my moods and my typical reaction to life's hard spots- which would be smoke more weed.
I'm in 3rd year honours psychology, maintaining an A average. The last two weeks of school are on me and I have major presentations that are due and I haven't started them yet, which is unusual for me.
I feel at such a loss, I don't smile. I don't laugh. I cry a lot. I know I am going deeper into depression, but my psychiatrist is not worried. My endo thinks I am fine. My gp is on vacation and tries as hard as he can to find good specialists that will help me. Another doctor, a surgeon that deals with my scans (RAI uptake in august for thyroid cancer) is the most concerned but the least able to help.
Where do I go now?
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seriousperson
03-23-2006, 01:50 AM
Sometimes I think I am communicating about my moods to mental health professionals, but they just aren't getting it.
You could try printing out what you typed above and showing it to them.
You could try printing out what you typed above and showing it to them.
bluesnowflake
03-23-2006, 04:28 AM
oh, to top it off I spent 4 hours in the ER tonight and now have a bladder infection. I am peeing blood clots and it hurts like hell!
cagedbird
03-23-2006, 04:36 AM
Now you call your pdoc up and tell him your depression is getting worse,& you need a med ajustment. If he blows you off again,find a new pdoc,one that will listen to you. Hope you feel better.
cagedbird :wave:
cagedbird :wave: