Well most of my life I have known pain, you might even say it has become my friend in life. But then oppsss broke the c3,c4 c5 in the neck wow my body don't work well at least not for a few months. Well at first it felt good to fell something even if it were pain and to move my fingers and arms and legs, you get the picture I'm sure. Well soon the pain would not let me sleep or even move so I turned to painkillers now I know why they call them killers. I've been on oxycodone 20's three times a day for 6 years what a rollercoaster ride it has been, or better yet what a living hell. The pills run my life got to have a pill or it will make you pay. Well this is day four of no pills for me yuck! is the only word I got for how I fill. I hate the pain but I'm not sure I don't hate the pill even more. So the question here is if I can't learn to live with the pain and I refuse to take the pill huh? That's kind of a dark thought wouldn't you say. Pick your poison? How do you wish to kill yourself? Pills, Pain? or? You know it's sad that with all we know these days we can't find a better way of helping all the ppl that suffer with such great pain and get served by ppl that don't understand what and how we fill. Well I have alot to think about as the numbness leaves my body from the oxy. You know for someone like myself who has Pain 24-7 there are only to things the pill and the cure. I hope no one fills bad for there fight with there own pill and monsters they are doing to you just what they are suppose to do even make you adiicted that is how they work so it's not just you there is no one that can take this stuff that we do and not be in trouble sooner or later I'm a strong man and I to fight the little pill it's so small but it can still kick my ***. Just food for thought. I sure hope this withdraw ends so I can get some sleep and not be so moody, I don't like myself this way it's not me. Good luck to all.

Hi Wolf, you should try posting on the pain board. Unless you have been abusing the pills, all you have is a dependance and that's not at all the same as additions. You know they's many other ways to deal with pain than just Oxy, really you needn't suffer so much, I'm sure you have a story to tell, but there's so much wisdom on the pain board if that's you place; maybe A & R is your place, only you know that, either way I hope you find some peace in your heart and body before too long, it sounds like things are real tougth right now.

Best Wishes

Blaster.