Hi
First off Im 15, and latley Ive bene feeling depressed..I think..I feel there's no reaosn I should..I have alot of friends, a family that loves me alot, I play sports football and hockey..Im usually a really confident teenager. Ive had problems over my life, I guess worse than other people's but there's people out there alot worse off than me.

Im a "thinker" I guess, if I dont understand something it really bothers me. Within the last year it seemed like I was worrying about my health alot, like if I got the flu or a fever Id feel really down like it would never go away..then I got an ear infection and ringing in my ears which really bothered me and had me down..it went away and I felt better, but a week later it wa sliek the ringing came back , not the same as before and I felt really depressed then..I think i was making it up soemhow, My doctor said I should maybe see a counsellor about anxiety or obsession before I was worried about my health like that. I didnt and it eventually passed, I felt ok but not totally normal, day dreamy all the time..Then one day it was just liek all these thoughts came upon me thoughts that I didnt know who I was anymore or what anythign around me was..like why are we here and what is this place..It makes me really scared. Because of these thoughts its like I dont feel of this world, like Im living in that thought that nothing is here. I have fammily, friends yet I still feel all alone, trapped? It all seems like a dream. I dont want to die because Its like I have no clue what death means or anything. and Ive been having these thoughts for about a month..Ive started seeing a counsellor and been twice, she thinks its depression but I dont know.

Do you think these thoughts could be whats depressing me? Making me feel not of this world, I know this is stupid I shouldnt care about things like what the world is etc but I just dont know how to shake them. Does this sound like depression? I cry alot know about it, not knowing who I am or what anyhting is in this mental state..I was never one to cry before, and I guess I looked down upon people who did. Nothing interests me anyomore, sports, tv, I feel trapped and I just cant grasp why.
My counsellor said that some people go through this like wondering why we're all here..is this osmething that I'll be able to get through, feel totally normal once again, not worry about what everything is? Im afraid of being stuck like this forever. My Mom wants me to try to get through this without anti-depressants.
I have good days and bad days...all of last week I felt ok, still day dreamy though (it's like I day dream of normal conversations with people, it started out by me day dreaming abotu tlaking to my doctor about my ear infection.) I know this is stupid and is nothing compared to some people that have real problems wiht life, but for me its like I dont know what life is anymore, or death. I jsut feel so confused..I talk to my om about it regularlly saying the asme htings over and over.

Thanks to anyone who reads this and can help me in anyway - I just want to know if this sounds like depression and if it's beatable (this feeling) with anti depressants, counslling or one of the two., will I ever feel 100%?
Im sorry for the length I just need to have somehow to relate

Hormones... (& other) Chemical imbalances could be causing the depression, if no other issues are found by a medical doctor. If u are depressed your imunity drops and u will find it hard to fight off a simple cold, and wehn u get sick, it depresses u.. See another doctor if the current one doesn't want to help.. I do not believe a person always has to be sent to a shrink, everytime the primary doctor doesn't want to deal with it. Don't feel like you are nuts or a mental case, just because u are seeing a head doctor. You don't have to tell the world, but if these issues persist, u will need to find out just what is causing it and find a fix to it.. If u can not get a second option, find a free clinic.. Since u r into sports, and heavy or light exercise is not helping the depression, there is something more going on, after a full physical rules a bunch of other issues out, including your diet, then the next step is to figure out just what else could be happening..
As for taking anti-depressants.. I take Paxil CR 12.5, I don't like recommending the drug, but it may help u see things more clearer. (i doubt this helped, but hopefully others will now respond and provide u with additional or better assistance...) Good luck.