Today has to be the WORST I have felt all week!

Here is my "issue" today... For some reason I am unable to enjoy anything I am doing, because the next thing I am about to do stresses me out.

Everything! Say if for example, I am listening to music, I will feel stress that I have to go to the mall to buy shoes.

And that goes with everything in life. I am at work, I worry about after work. Before I sleep, I worry about when I wake up.

Thus, I enjoy nothing because I am always fretting/worried/stress/nervous/aniexty I don't know what it is exactly. I just call it stress, but I have no idea...

ARGH... It is upsetting me, because what ends up happening after all that thinking is that I EXPECT THE WORST and then I seem to GET EXACTLY WHAT I EXPECT which was the WORST.

BAH!

Wouldn't it be cool if we could go sit somewhere nice outdoors (I like to picture Washington Square Park, Manhattan on a crisp but mild, somewhat sunny autumn day) with our favorite beverage (make mine a low-fat cappucino or latte) and just watch the squirrels gather the nuts, and talk about the last great film/book/song/whatever, AND NOT HAVE ANY WORRIES because . . . someone just deposited a million dollars into each of our checking accounts and we can just bum around for the rest of our lives . . .

So goes my thinking when EVERYTHING is just driving me CRAZY and I have a TO-DO list that pisses me off (because half the stuff seems to be other people's mistakes that I now have to take the time to go fix . . .)

I hope you chill out in awhile.

What specifically is causing you the most problems -- wanting to please other people? Loneliness? Financial insecurity? just curious.

Originally posted by mouse62:
I hope you chill out in awhile.

What specifically is causing you the most problems -- wanting to please other people? Loneliness? Financial insecurity? just curious.

All day I have been like this. Since the second I woke up http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/frown.gif I want to drink a coffee but I am scared it will make me more nuts... http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/frown.gif

To answer your questions.

I don't WANT to please anyone but myself. I believe everyone should beable to do things in life to make themselves happy, bahahaha, yeah right, like I can do it.

I always feel alone because not a soul in the real world does not understand my ill feelings. Nor am I able to or motivated to sit there and DEBATE the issues as to why I am ill. Nobody wants to except the fact that I actually may have a illness.

As far as finances go. I can't even get a sears card. My credit is totalled plus I got owe all kinds of money to my family. plus i am always broke. bah...

everything is just sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo crap http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/frown.gif