What The Problem Is:
*I get a thought I don't like in my head and I can't get it out. (not like worrying about something) a thought about something in the past or just anything I wasn't fond of.

I'll be feeling like myself, then when this happens, I get nervous like the bad thought's not gonna go away and I'll have it with me the entire night.
I try my hardest to keep in my normal positive state of mind. (it's like Im fighting something off inside my brain , to let me feel myself,.haha)


Physical Symptoms:
-I have headaches , sometimes in some specific areas , sometimes my entire brain feels worn out and tired.
-The heartbeat in the temples of my head drives me.
-Patterns appear in my vision , like a disign and it's moving.
-At night , when my eyes are closed or open I see white things , kinda like a blank tv screen, that's there in the day too. I see a white light it just appears at day , at night , eyes closed or open , it comes to me (picture an old 8mm film movie being broken and on the screen your watching, that white light kinda burns through the picture.)
-Aswell I feel like the nerves in my arms a lot, sometimes my legs. like I feel them present, they dont hurt , just uncomfotable and I have to rub them or move my arm around fast to get my mind off it.
-and some mornings I wake up and just feel sick to my stomach.
-Also it's like I forget to breathe. I realize that I haven't breathed for a while , so I do. I even try breathing normal it just doesn't continue, I just breathe in little breaths and the occasional larger one. (like it's a chore to breathe) This occurs a lot during the day. and no it's not sleep apnea.


its history:
-use to have serious migraines
-I use to feel something in my head , it was a warm sensation. like it felt like warm water and spread like someone cracked an egg between my brain and skull.
(That use to happen alot , I asked some ppl if they get that feeling and every1 wud say no , so I was 2 embarassed to ask anymore.)