ok well for abouta year now i have been feeling really bad about my body . I don't understand why though, i swim 5 days a week and i still feel fat :o . I look at myself and all i see is my pouch of fatt on my stomach and theighs and my jiggely arms. Then i see other girls and say what i would do for their bodies, i mean wat is their secret and why cant i get the idea of not eating will makje everything better, please help and tell me if you have ever felt like this b4. :confused:

It sounds like you know in the back of your head somewhere that not eating will NOT make things better... They will become infinitely worse... Think about it. First, body image problems don't go away. A distorted body image simply becomes more distorted as you deprive yourself of nutrition. You are cold, unbelievably tired, and constantly in conflict with those you love. Your hair falls out, you clothes don't fit - and you can't find any that do except in a children's store. Instead of feeling better, you feel trapped and hopeless. It's NOT a good place to be. Try to deal with the body image issues now, instead of trying to dig yourself in deeper. Put your energy to something positive, before there is no more energy to speak of.

i think this is something that i struggle with too. I have an eating disorder, and why do I want to hang onto it? Because it makes you feel horrible.

Initially it might make you feel better (kind of a false "high") but it always leaves you feeling horrible. You say you swim 5 days a week, your body will not be able to handle that if you arent eating.

Try to find your strength and happiness in something outside appearances. That's one of the things I am trying to learn to do, but it's hard. It's really hard. But you don't want to spend your life like this because it is not admirable, or glamourous, or anything to envy.

Freedomseeker -
when I was about 17, 18 or so I wanted to be thinner, and I actually envied that girl in my class who had anorexia... something about it was just so "special". The title of your post, "why do I want an eating disorder?" is exactly how I felt. Somehow I WANTED to become anorexic.
One reason is because I wanted to be thin and to have others say how skinny I look, maybe also because I wanted them to worry but maybe also because I wanted them to envy me.
Then the other reason was that I wanted to be able to eat whatever I wanted to without having to worry about my weight - I figured once I'm skinny I can do that.
BIG ILLUSION!!!!!!

Later when I did become anorexic and it kind of became stuck in me, I realized how wrong I had been to "want" it. Could I eat without worrying? NOPE, I worried all the more, plus then I was obsessed with food, that's just a reaction of the body to being undernourished.
And I realized I may have messed up my body's metabolism so I was all the more worried.
By then I just wished I had never started it.

Plus, the food obsession just kept taking over. And a lot of other things in my life lost their meaning to me. And my health declined, so I was always worried about that too. My heart rate became really low. I didn't dare have fun anymore because I was afraid it might kill me - plus I wasn't in the mood for fun anyway.

My message - don't glorify anorexia. It looks "special" from the outside, and it may feel exciting in the beginning, give you a kind of temporary high. But then it's just feeling stuck and miserable, sucks all the joy right out of your life and leaves you stuck with just food food food weight weight weight to obsess about.

NO FUN.

Now about your body - there are healthy ways to feel good about yourself. Try to eat what feels healthy, and try to love your body. Exercise, yeah, that's good. But don't try to become anorexic. It has that tendency to backfire...

Kathrin

I feel the exact same way you do. the same questions are always running through my mind; why am I so fat, why can't I get skinny, if I stop eating, will I get skinnier faster than w/ nonstop excercise?
I don't know how to get rid of this feeling either. if you know a really good way to get skinny w/o going anorexic, not excercise either unless it's a good program, then please email me @ REMOVED.
thanks




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ok well for abouta year now i have been feeling really bad about my body . I don't understand why though, i swim 5 days a week and i still feel fat :o . I look at myself and all i see is my pouch of fatt on my stomach and theighs and my jiggely arms. Then i see other girls and say what i would do for their bodies, i mean wat is their secret and why cant i get the idea of not eating will makje everything better, please help and tell me if you have ever felt like this b4. :confused:

YOU dont want an eating disorder .. They ruin lives and can KILL you. Its not worth being a bean pole. Eat well and eat a lot and exercise!! Keep swimming