I went a total of 26 days without purging, and today i b/p'ed. I don't even know how I feel about it. It's like before I knew it I was eating and eating and then I just couldn't stop. It's almost like I never stopped in the first place. I don't know where to go from here, I feel like I'm going to fall back down where I was before.

On top of the purging, I have to see my nutritionist tonight...great (sarcasm)...i just feel like crying.

Hey mandabear,

I just want you to know that the fact you made it 26 days is very inspiring to me. I'm still at the point where 5 days is amazing, but you're past that point! Try not to focus on your one slip-up, but on your 26 good days. You sound really sad, and I hope you feel better soon! :-) Again, you are an encouragement to people like me who are struggling!

i feel like everything is going downhill now. like i'm in 'restricting mode' and just feel horrible. It doesnt help that my sister told me that I "looked pregnant" yesterday.