jenbrugg
04-24-2006, 11:51 PM
:wave: Hi. Im new here so hello to anyone reading this. Maybe you have some of the same problems I do. Since a very young age i have been depressed and full of anxiety. i never told anyone because I never felt safe enough to let anyone know how I truly felt. I grew up in a divorced family (i was 7) my mom left us. My father was an abusive alcoholic and im sure he had his own problems but home was not a good place when he was drinking. I am also an attempted rape survivor (3yrs ago) by a very close family friend. I have been diagnosed with chronic depression and an anxiety disorder (no one has told me wich one). I am on Celexa and some days I feel OK. I can cope and just plow through because I have to but other days are miserable. I am scared, sad and very very angry most of the time. I am rarely just calm and relaxed. I cant even sit down to watch a TV program (literally). I am obsessed about cleaning my house, organizing and being "on top" of everything. I cant stay asleep and most times cant stay awake when I should. I wonder about OCD and PTSD. Does anyone see any similarities or maybe its a combinatin of a few different disorders. I dont believe, however that anxiety and depression are the extent of my problems. Iam at the point of looking for a councellor; someone to talk to about these feelings of guilt, anger, pain and fear because this personal baggage is so immense that there are times when I cant even explain it or put words to my feelings. i am very irritable, enragabe is more like it, if that is a word. my concern is the toll it is taking on my relationships especially between me and my boyfriend. I also have a two year old son who doesnt need to see his mommy crying almost every day and the fact that my anger is becomming uncontrollable and i dont like the person im becomming. I am sometimes afraid of my angeranyone with any insight would be greatly appreciated. - God bless. j
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04-25-2006, 03:01 AM
Find a good therapist, preferably a cognitive behavior therapist and a good psychiatrist to prescribe your meds. You need to have a through evaluation done in order to get a proper diagnosis, then a proper treatment plan can be put into place. Therapists are familiar with the psychiatrist and visa versa, so if you can find one, they may be able to recommend the other.
You mentioned you had anxiety but didn't know what kind. There are disorders as OCD, that fall into the anxiety disorders group, but you can suffer with anxiety, all by itself. GAD, generalized anxiety disorder. There are lots of meds you can try for all these disorders, but first you need to know what it is you are treating. It is very common to suffer with more than one disorder. OCD, for instance, is often accompanied by depression and or PTSD and anxiety is a given. While all these disorders can be treated with meds at the same time, depending on the diagnosis and severity of each disorder, you may have to treat on thing before you can treat another. If you have severe depression or PTSD, without some treatment there first, it may not be possible to treat the OCD yet.
A good therapist knows all the right questions to ask and has all the tools and screening tests to make a proper diagnosis. That is where you need to start.
Good Luck!
You mentioned you had anxiety but didn't know what kind. There are disorders as OCD, that fall into the anxiety disorders group, but you can suffer with anxiety, all by itself. GAD, generalized anxiety disorder. There are lots of meds you can try for all these disorders, but first you need to know what it is you are treating. It is very common to suffer with more than one disorder. OCD, for instance, is often accompanied by depression and or PTSD and anxiety is a given. While all these disorders can be treated with meds at the same time, depending on the diagnosis and severity of each disorder, you may have to treat on thing before you can treat another. If you have severe depression or PTSD, without some treatment there first, it may not be possible to treat the OCD yet.
A good therapist knows all the right questions to ask and has all the tools and screening tests to make a proper diagnosis. That is where you need to start.
Good Luck!
StephanieAnne
04-25-2006, 01:57 PM
I can relate to how you feel, because I was there.
Find yourself PTSD therapist, do a google search for a provider in your area
it will change your entire life, it was the best thing that I did for me.
During therapy it was realized that I did have a little OCD, but I can control it, and I do have some Manic highs and lows, and with therapy I am able to control that.
Not only did therapy change my life, it changed the texture of my skin on my face, it made it more softer, it made me more comfortable being me, it let me be me whoever that was. It gave me the tools to live my life how I want to. I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis in 2004 and I went back to therapy to help with the depression and the acceptance that I do have MS. I have learned not to run from problems to face them dead on.
Therapy will let you become the person that you want to be, and you may not know what that is, but you will. It will be the hardest thing that you will ever do, but it will be the most rewarding.
You have a child, and I am sure that you don't want him growing up in fear and depression like you did. Do this for you and for him, once you let things go, better things come back to you, it is hard to explain, but once you free yourself from the life that you now have and hate, you will find a whole new way of life and it is freaking awesome. :)
and If I can do it anyone can do it ;)
Find yourself PTSD therapist, do a google search for a provider in your area
it will change your entire life, it was the best thing that I did for me.
During therapy it was realized that I did have a little OCD, but I can control it, and I do have some Manic highs and lows, and with therapy I am able to control that.
Not only did therapy change my life, it changed the texture of my skin on my face, it made it more softer, it made me more comfortable being me, it let me be me whoever that was. It gave me the tools to live my life how I want to. I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis in 2004 and I went back to therapy to help with the depression and the acceptance that I do have MS. I have learned not to run from problems to face them dead on.
Therapy will let you become the person that you want to be, and you may not know what that is, but you will. It will be the hardest thing that you will ever do, but it will be the most rewarding.
You have a child, and I am sure that you don't want him growing up in fear and depression like you did. Do this for you and for him, once you let things go, better things come back to you, it is hard to explain, but once you free yourself from the life that you now have and hate, you will find a whole new way of life and it is freaking awesome. :)
and If I can do it anyone can do it ;)
LoveLife8888
04-26-2006, 01:44 PM
:wave: I have read (just yesterday) that constant verbal and physical abuse does creat post-traumatic stress in people.
Go for counselling. I don't know how old you are but many peoples lives have been ruined by an abusive mom or dad or both mom and dad.
You only have one life to live so make the most for yourself. None of this was your fault. Its a cycle, the cycle of abuse. Good luck and try to find coping skills, but you MUST first get rid of the anger.
Someone in Canada :wave:
Go for counselling. I don't know how old you are but many peoples lives have been ruined by an abusive mom or dad or both mom and dad.
You only have one life to live so make the most for yourself. None of this was your fault. Its a cycle, the cycle of abuse. Good luck and try to find coping skills, but you MUST first get rid of the anger.
Someone in Canada :wave: