blipblue
04-29-2006, 05:52 PM
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Hi I am new to these boards and am having a really hard time lately. I know that probably not many of you can relate to me or what i am going through at this time and that's okay any form of support is good. See part of my story is that I was raped in my appartment two months ago and the police dont even care. THey said that i would have an advocate about a month after the rape and there has been nothing no call from the DA's office and I have been left completely in the dark about whats happening to my case. This is driving me completely round the twist. I have DID and PTSD from being so severly abused in all forms all my life and being raped and having to go through a rape kit all alone in an emergency room was quiet traumatizing for me as i guess it would be for anyone with PTSD. Man how dumb do I sound. Thats only part of me and my story and the guy who raped me still from time to time comes to my window at night and taps on it. I dont feel safe in my appartment and I dont feel safe when i walk the streets. I spend a great deal of my days walking aimlessly in the street. Sounds crazy right, half the time i dont know where to go or where I am going. I dont really know how or what to feel these days.
Food is another huge problem for me. I cannot eat at all. Its just too hard to keep the stuff down, does anyone know of any liquid supplements that I can take that would replace the solid food one would normally eat.
thanks for listening, Blipblue.
Hi I am new to these boards and am having a really hard time lately. I know that probably not many of you can relate to me or what i am going through at this time and that's okay any form of support is good. See part of my story is that I was raped in my appartment two months ago and the police dont even care. THey said that i would have an advocate about a month after the rape and there has been nothing no call from the DA's office and I have been left completely in the dark about whats happening to my case. This is driving me completely round the twist. I have DID and PTSD from being so severly abused in all forms all my life and being raped and having to go through a rape kit all alone in an emergency room was quiet traumatizing for me as i guess it would be for anyone with PTSD. Man how dumb do I sound. Thats only part of me and my story and the guy who raped me still from time to time comes to my window at night and taps on it. I dont feel safe in my appartment and I dont feel safe when i walk the streets. I spend a great deal of my days walking aimlessly in the street. Sounds crazy right, half the time i dont know where to go or where I am going. I dont really know how or what to feel these days.
Food is another huge problem for me. I cannot eat at all. Its just too hard to keep the stuff down, does anyone know of any liquid supplements that I can take that would replace the solid food one would normally eat.
thanks for listening, Blipblue.
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popples2006
05-10-2006, 12:50 AM
Hello,
I do know exactly what you are going through. I will you the best of luck and you have my sympathy. I was emotionally and physically abused most of my life and 3 years ago sexually abused. This person is still free and still around. I don't know your home situation and I know it is unfare that you are still being punished daily (especially in your mind). You are probably reliving the incident daily in you head. Unfortunately, you will always remember every detail of this, but I do promise you that you can go on. First make a stand and take a self-defense class. Then seek some help with this issue. You can speak to someone but make sure you are ready because if you are not then you will not keep the commitment. Also, carry pepper spray on you (depending upon your state laws). If you have friends/family, tell them what happen but do not expect them to believe you (this way if they don't then you won't go through more pain). Lock your doors (put a chair under the handle at night), lock your windows (put a stick to keep it closed), and if able get a dog (have it trained) this way it will give you security and friendship. If you are uncomfortable, get some hidden cameras in your place and point one toward your window to catch him on it. If you have any good footage, make sure you make a copy for yourself and the police. Try to keep pushing them for more info. I wish I could be there for you and help you through this. I know what your thinking/feeling, but remember to take one day at a time. I currently take 50mg zoloft and it helps me greatly with no side effects. look into possibly moving out of state if able. or moving in with family/friends to help. Get one of those devices "i've fallen and can't get up", it is a necklace you wear in your place and if you push the button it automatically sends a signal to the police. Possibly get a security system. I know all this sounds like more torture to you, but unfortunately you must be safe first and foremost. Good Luck and keep us intouch. :)
I do know exactly what you are going through. I will you the best of luck and you have my sympathy. I was emotionally and physically abused most of my life and 3 years ago sexually abused. This person is still free and still around. I don't know your home situation and I know it is unfare that you are still being punished daily (especially in your mind). You are probably reliving the incident daily in you head. Unfortunately, you will always remember every detail of this, but I do promise you that you can go on. First make a stand and take a self-defense class. Then seek some help with this issue. You can speak to someone but make sure you are ready because if you are not then you will not keep the commitment. Also, carry pepper spray on you (depending upon your state laws). If you have friends/family, tell them what happen but do not expect them to believe you (this way if they don't then you won't go through more pain). Lock your doors (put a chair under the handle at night), lock your windows (put a stick to keep it closed), and if able get a dog (have it trained) this way it will give you security and friendship. If you are uncomfortable, get some hidden cameras in your place and point one toward your window to catch him on it. If you have any good footage, make sure you make a copy for yourself and the police. Try to keep pushing them for more info. I wish I could be there for you and help you through this. I know what your thinking/feeling, but remember to take one day at a time. I currently take 50mg zoloft and it helps me greatly with no side effects. look into possibly moving out of state if able. or moving in with family/friends to help. Get one of those devices "i've fallen and can't get up", it is a necklace you wear in your place and if you push the button it automatically sends a signal to the police. Possibly get a security system. I know all this sounds like more torture to you, but unfortunately you must be safe first and foremost. Good Luck and keep us intouch. :)
freewillnc
07-16-2006, 04:12 AM
I know what you are going through too. I have been robbed at gun point 4 times. The police spend 30 minutes looking for the bas@$@#, and then after that forget it. I was hoping to find folks that have experienced trauma too so that we can talk and maybe help me through all this. And maybe I can help someoneelse feel better too. Being raped sure is horrible I am so sorry for you. I was molested at the age of 9 too, so I know what you are going through a little.