Gitano18
05-03-2006, 06:16 AM
Hi everyone im Marko and i got a serious under weight problem. Im here to tell u my life in a fast letter please listen to what i gotta say. Im skinny all my life but i never realy cared about it til i hit the age of 16. Im 18 now and i weight 54 kilo :confused: everydayyy i look in the mirror and all im thinkin about is when em i gonna get bigger at least10 pounds..that would make a difrence for me at least 10 pounds. I have sooo much stress that its not even healthy i think about my underweight problem all day and teh stress gets to me alot and than i feel so bad that i go to sleep with tears in my eyes. I went to the doctors and they took a blood test from me and they told me that im normaly fine thats just the way i am( fast metabulism). There is a working out gym right beside my house so i go there few times in a month and i must say that i did gain muscles in my arms only muscle mass but that dont proove anythin to me...Anyways people tell me that im a very good lookin guy , multi talented. Im a musicion/singer/ dancer i write my own music produce my own songs and my life is Stevie wonder i follow his path...but the real person whos holding me in this life is my fionce Stella...shes soo beautiful words cant even describe her face,shes looks like a model, shes my sunshine my star shes my life and if i wouldnt have her i wouldnt even be here no more i be dead long time ago cuz of my skinnyness problem SHES MY ANGEL :angel:.
So to sum it up all my talent it all comes down to me being so skinny and that just rips my heart off because i know that if i would be a normal weight i wouldnt need nothin in my life no more cuz i got it all from God...But the skinnynes beats all the talent away or the good looks, It has the power of me and i am fed up with it. Sometimes i even think of dieng, go kill my self but i cant cause my fionce would kill her self 2 for me, shes loves me 2 much...lot of times i go so crazy so stressd that i dont even know what to do my heart hurts in deep pain ITS LIKE IM DIENG INSIDE....IF I WOULD HAVE ONE WISH IT WOULDNT BE TO HAVE A BILLION DOLLARS, A FERRARI, OR TO BE FAMOUS...IT WOULD BE TO GAIN AT LEAST 25 KILOS THATS ALL I ASK FROM GOD...I DONT NEED ANYTHING ELSE I ALREADY HAVE EVERYTHIN IN MY LIFE MY BABY( STELLA)...THATS ALL I NEED.
anyways im going to go now i hope u read this letter cause i left for you people so u can read it...I never talked about it to noone like im talking about it in this letter. So i dont know tell me what u think of my life how do u feel , if u can maybe help give me some ideas...i dont know. :confused: ALL OF U TAKE CARE THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR UR TIME I RESPECT THAT.
Let Jesus and god be with you :wave:
So to sum it up all my talent it all comes down to me being so skinny and that just rips my heart off because i know that if i would be a normal weight i wouldnt need nothin in my life no more cuz i got it all from God...But the skinnynes beats all the talent away or the good looks, It has the power of me and i am fed up with it. Sometimes i even think of dieng, go kill my self but i cant cause my fionce would kill her self 2 for me, shes loves me 2 much...lot of times i go so crazy so stressd that i dont even know what to do my heart hurts in deep pain ITS LIKE IM DIENG INSIDE....IF I WOULD HAVE ONE WISH IT WOULDNT BE TO HAVE A BILLION DOLLARS, A FERRARI, OR TO BE FAMOUS...IT WOULD BE TO GAIN AT LEAST 25 KILOS THATS ALL I ASK FROM GOD...I DONT NEED ANYTHING ELSE I ALREADY HAVE EVERYTHIN IN MY LIFE MY BABY( STELLA)...THATS ALL I NEED.
anyways im going to go now i hope u read this letter cause i left for you people so u can read it...I never talked about it to noone like im talking about it in this letter. So i dont know tell me what u think of my life how do u feel , if u can maybe help give me some ideas...i dont know. :confused: ALL OF U TAKE CARE THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR UR TIME I RESPECT THAT.
Let Jesus and god be with you :wave:
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05-03-2006, 08:17 AM
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Gitano18
05-03-2006, 09:31 AM
Maan i doo eat..i sometimes order a extra large pizza and i eat all my self, i eat bread 2 but i dont think that i can eat 4000 calories a day THATS TOO MUCH FOR ME i prolly throw up.
Chloe.Roma
05-03-2006, 11:48 AM
Hi Gitano18, I think you will gain more weight by the time you are 21 or 22 years old. I knew a guy that was tall and skinny at 18 and then when I say him at 22 he filled out. I think this happens to a lot of men. I would not eat all that junk food someone else said to do. I would eat healthy and exercise and I think you will be fine. :)
6foot3
05-03-2006, 03:09 PM
There is a working out gym right beside my house so i go there few times in a month and i must say that i did gain muscles in my arms only muscle mass but that dont proove anythin to me..
What do you mean that didn't prove anything to you...... You your self said going to the gym lifting weights gave you more mass in your arms....Look when i was 18 i was 6/3 tall and weigh 135 lbs. Very skinny and i hated it so i ate alot in the Navy and when i got out at 21.... i weigh 145 lbs then i joined the YMCA and learned about building muscle and the proper foods to fuel my muscles. I also took ''Gainers Fuel'' twice a day at 2500 cals per serving and drank milk all the time and i put on muscle. Even too this day if i didn't lift weights i'd be skinny so its something you'll have to do all your life if you hate being skinny.(genetics). Lastly do not eat fast food/ junk food as even skinny people can get type-2 Diabete's and premature Heart disease and Pancreatic cancer. So i survived it and you can too but you have to pump iron........
What do you mean that didn't prove anything to you...... You your self said going to the gym lifting weights gave you more mass in your arms....Look when i was 18 i was 6/3 tall and weigh 135 lbs. Very skinny and i hated it so i ate alot in the Navy and when i got out at 21.... i weigh 145 lbs then i joined the YMCA and learned about building muscle and the proper foods to fuel my muscles. I also took ''Gainers Fuel'' twice a day at 2500 cals per serving and drank milk all the time and i put on muscle. Even too this day if i didn't lift weights i'd be skinny so its something you'll have to do all your life if you hate being skinny.(genetics). Lastly do not eat fast food/ junk food as even skinny people can get type-2 Diabete's and premature Heart disease and Pancreatic cancer. So i survived it and you can too but you have to pump iron........
Jonistyle4
05-03-2006, 05:00 PM
hey gitano, i want to say that i sympathize with your pain. people don't always understand how uncomfortable our bodies can make us feel. many people on this board struggle because they feel "fat" and they get frustrated with trying to get "skinny" and stick to a "diet." you struggle because you hate your body also, right? and it comes down to frustration with and control over food and exercise to achieve a desired result, right? the way i see it, it's really the same situation, just backwards, you know?
however, your perception of your body and the way it seems to be ruining your life isn't very healthy (just as people constantly obsessed with diet and exercise aren't mentally/holistically healthy either). have you ever considered seeking therapy to sort out these feelings? i really think it would help you. your weight and the way your body looks are NOTHING more than physical things. but you see it as something terrible, something that ruins your day, something to fight against, something that makes you worthless ... that's not healthy and you shouldn't have to live with these feelings. you deserve to be happy regardless of your appearance! i REALLY recommend seeking therapy to deal with this. good luck and i hope this post helps!
however, your perception of your body and the way it seems to be ruining your life isn't very healthy (just as people constantly obsessed with diet and exercise aren't mentally/holistically healthy either). have you ever considered seeking therapy to sort out these feelings? i really think it would help you. your weight and the way your body looks are NOTHING more than physical things. but you see it as something terrible, something that ruins your day, something to fight against, something that makes you worthless ... that's not healthy and you shouldn't have to live with these feelings. you deserve to be happy regardless of your appearance! i REALLY recommend seeking therapy to deal with this. good luck and i hope this post helps!