ok, i have no idea what i have, i've bee diagnosed with anxiety and take a medication for that which keeps the panic attacks at bay, and they thought i might have depression or bi-polar disorder but theyre not sure, the only med that sorta worked was a mood stabalizer which im currently on and isnt working this time around though, so now i guess i'll say my symptoms, i get panic attacks obviously im always paranoid, i get like sorta visions that i can see in my head but not in front of me of people sneaking up on me and i really just cannot take this anymore since it used to be just 1 freaky lookin person and now its like 50.... im dizzy all the time, and its not a normal dizzy its like a swaying dizzy that sometimes gets really bad and i have to sit down but its been there my whole life 24/7 and wont go away, i always feel uncomfortable, sometimes have thoughts of suicide, i used to hurt myself in past. my bf noticed i wash my hands alot and commented on it (although i hadnt noticed it and just think its being sanitary) i have already seen alot of therapists and docs ect and even been to a ward for a few months and nothing has helped, if anyone has any idea what this might be please help.

The washing of the hands could be a compulsive disorder but I beleive some anti depresants are good for this. I have suffered panic attacks for over 21 years. I get sudden feelings wash over me like:
distant, unrealistic feelings, dizziness, swaying, spaced out, shaky,blurred vision - this is all before I start to panic. I only start to panic when I get these symptoms or get the sudden feeling that I have stopped breathing! How on earth you can stop those first lot of symptoms coming on God only knows because I can be engrossed in doing something and they stop me in my tracks. So, I am not actually thinking any anxious thoughts prior to these strange sensations, its only my interpretation of the sensations that make me feel out of control and unrealistic hence panic. Its all a learned response. I have had many many treatments of all kinds for this but never got rid of it. Anti depressants haelp me for a short while but I seem to soon get used to them and they become ineffective. The only thing that knocks my panic on the head is valium, the one pill that doctors hate giving out in the UK.

ok, uh i dont really think the hand washing is ocd, cause arent ppl with ocd kinda bothered that they do that stuff, i just happen to have to wash my hands alot... it doesnt bother me or anything like i wash em when theyre dirty... i was more concerned with the swimming in my head and the vision like things... those are more disturbing.

have you been checked out for the dizzyness, it can be from anxiety or from several other causes
when engrossed, you may actually forget to breathe, this can happen, so remind yourself to keep breathing

yes ive seen an ear nose throat doctor, a neurologist, had tons of blood work done, had these stickies put on me to measure something, gotten a couple eeg's an mri, tons of stuff, everything comes back normal. trust me im doing everything in my power to try and get rid of this! ive also had a sleep test done and my breathing was normal during that... since i do have anxiety i usually focus on my breathing constantly and try to keep it at a good level so i dont think it would be that