LilBlondieGrl
05-09-2006, 10:56 PM
I am so tired of this whole recovery thing. I know no one said it would be easy but i hate it! Why cant everyone just leave me alone? So what if i dont eat.... ughhhh im so fusterated with it all right now. :o I have been loosing weight (i think) sence i started recovery and thats not good! Im supposed to be gaining NOT LOOSING! ahhhh idk what to do.. im so lost even in my own thoughts and its driving me insain. Why cant i just lock it all up and get rid of it all? I dont like food and im not wanting to like food. Its yuckey and it makes you fat... and yet everyone is trying to force me to eat.. idk its all just so confusing!
amethest
05-13-2006, 12:17 PM
hello,
i totoally understand where you are coming from and i HATE food too! its evil and it makes you fat and makes you feel fat, but we need to eat. and we need to dvelop a halthy relationship with food. In all my years of having this stupid disorder i have begun to absolutely hate food and everything it does to me and how it makes me crazy. But its because we havea disorder and have developed a problem with food. i don tknow what to tell you because i havea major problem too and cant control it even when i think i can it just comes back 10 times worse, but you have to try!
maybe i should follow my own advice? harder done than said:)
Jonistyle4
05-15-2006, 11:31 AM
girls, i think both of you need to read the book "Life Without Ed" as soon as you can get your hands on it. these posts are not YOU talking, they are your "EATING DISORDER" talking. YOU, the woman, the person, do not hate food. that's ridiculous, girls, think about it!! BUT your eating disorder (aka: "Ed") DOES hate it (a lot!) and convinces you that you also hate food and that food is the enemy, etc. how can something that tastes GOOD and keeps you alive be the enemy? seriously, don't write that you hate food because i know deep down that you know it's not true. the book is all about seperating yourself from the voice of "Ed" (who right now you're completely agreeing with and speaking on behalf of) and learning to think on your own. so please read it, i really think it'll help both of you.
