i dont know if i have a problem or not!! i go to a dietican and therapist but i just feel like its not that bad. i eat about 1100 calories a day but im so desperate to just eat in the triple digits! 800-900 would be ideal. i feel so guilty after i eat and i hate eating so much. food has all of the sudden become my enemy and i dont know what to do.i have all these feelings about how i hate food. it makes me feel so good to be hungry. after i eat something big there is such temptation to make myself throw up (i haven't yet) but i feel like theres abotu to be a breaking point and ill start purging. i guess im just scared for that day and i dont want it to come. i'm not losing any weight or anything. help me!! i'm afraid to talk to people like my family about it because im ashamed. so do i have a problem? can you relate to anything i've said?

It does sound as if you have lost control of your life;almost as if you are being forced to do things that normally you would choose not to do. Could there exist say some disharmony between your parents that has affected you earlier in life. Do you harbour feelings of being unattractive and unwanted?

Do not feel obliged to answer.

No my parents and i have had a good relationship all my life. but like im very tall so i think that the number that i see on the scale upsets me. its not like im some insecure girl but i see myself as fat everytime i look in the mirror and no matter how many people tell me im not fat i still feel that way. thanks for your reply

Interesting, but I wonder why I gain the feeling that you are in denial? Possibly others on the forum who have been similarly affected may be able to help you.