Hi, I'm new to this board and I'm also new to Diabetes.
I have to take the Diabetes test next thursday, June 3rd.
My outlook doesn't look very good. My dad has diabetes, so did my grandfather (my dad's dad), and last year, my grandmother(my mom's mom) was diagnosed with diabetes.
So most likely, I will have it too.
I cried yesterday and I'm feeling a little depressed. Yesterday, I made a two headed Kitty Kitty Kittens stuffed animal because I needed to keep my mind off of it.
I'm scared. My grandfather lost his legs because of diabetes. My dad takes insulin and he's in a lot of pain sometimes.
I hate diets. I like being my size. I'm not fat and I'm not skinny. I'm scared diabetes is going to make me lose too much weight.
I don't know how to live without carboydrates!
I just started eating better and I'm hungry.
I'm scared because I'm already on a lot of depression medicines: 3 and then I'm going to have to pay for my diabetes medicines, lancets, etc. next year because I'll be on my own.
I have a great boyfriend of 5 years who will buy me my medicines. He buys my others. But I'm just sick of relying on him, I'm tired of him having to buy my stuff. I feel so bad.
I'm going to go to beauty college soon so I'll be able to make money in a year or so.
I just feel like a big burden to everyone, including myself.
I'm so depressed. I don't want to do anything but I know I have to.
I know I have to be active to keep myself healthy, its just that I'm very anti-social.
Diabetes is really going to change my life and I'm not ready for everything to change.
I have a lot of questions but I'll ask them in another post since this one is so long.
I just wanted to tell you a little about my plight and to tell you guys that I really need some support. I really need to see the brighter side.
I'll be here for you guys whenever I can.
Please be here for me.

we will be here for you ask any questions you need to know answers to and just to vent is ok to we are here for you.some of us like me were just diagnoses with the diabetes in may im on oral meds and thats not to bad the scarryest thing for me was learning to check my sugars my dad too was an insulin dependent diabetic along with miost of his sisters and his mother. i was borderline 4 years until this may when i got very ill with an infection the meds have made me feel bbetter than i have in a long time

It's perfectly normal to feel scared and overwhelmed when you first get diagnosed with a chronic illness. But please don't judge diabetes by what you know of it in the past. There are so many treatments today and, although it's true you'll have to work out a diet/exercise/medication program, the Diabetes Control and Complications trial proved that keeping tight control of your blood glucose dramatically minimizes complications, some of them by as much as 70%. The key is testing frequently and doing whatever it is that you need to do to keep your blood glucose under control.

Post back when you have your diagnosis...whether it's Type 1 or Type 2. Also, if I understood you correctly you're currently covered by insurance? Perhaps under your parents' insurance? I would strongly advise seeing an endocrinologist (if you're not already seeing one) and get a referral to a Registered Dietician. Education and understanding your options is a big key to controlling diabetes.

Good luck!

Thank you both so much.
Its great to have this place to come to.
I will look into getting a Dietician.

Keep your head up. I too am on lots of meds for arthritis, depression, high cholesterol, diabetes, restless leg syndrome, and sleeplessness. I got all this dumped on me in about a 1 year time frame as the result of a car accident that almost killed me, and was not even my fault. I went threw a really bad year of depression, then started to just say I have it, o-well, do what I want and just be happy. Then I too meet a really nice women and her and her mom really helped me to realize that people can care for you and will try and do their best to be there for you. I have been really blessed by what is now my wife’s mom to be able to help me financially and for about a year of being unemployed really helped me out. What was then my girlfriend stuck by my side. And like I said, we are married, just a few months ago. Now my sugars are still not in control, after about 4 years since I found out. I do sway from the quote diet a lot. But as each day passes, I learn more and more why getting this under control is so important. Not just for myself, but for my wife and even our 3 little cats, ok 1 is kinda fat. http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif

After all that, the one thing I can say, is just try different low crab, sugar free stuff. I am the last to say go cold turkey, I know after 4 years I should have been able to, but I have cut out what used to be about 4 to 6 liters of regular pop to maybe 1 liter of diet and 2 quarts of sugar free drink mixes. I find that when I have a sugar craving that sugar free kolaid was about 1/2 cup of splenda (sugar free sweetener) really helps to bring that craving down. Diet 7up, sugar free gummy worms, sugar free Reese’s peanut butter cups, low sugar smuckers jelly, healthy choice lunch meats, and 100% whole wheat, not the stuff that's made from a wheat product. That's all in part of my diet today. I keep trying to get away from more and more of the junk, and I will get there.

So there is hope. I'm sure everyone has there hope stories, but just with the bad luck and all the med's I'm on, I find that I'm a little unique and I really hope that this helps to keep you lifted and hope that you can get over this huge hill, and use all the medicines and food options out there and be able to continue to find a path of control.

Good luck, I do wish the best for you and everyone out there alike.

Hello, I just want to tell you that I feel you. I know what are you going through, but you need to know that as hard as it is, you are in control. It is up to you to reach the goals you want. So you don't have to end up like your grandpa, or suffer like your dad. I know how hard it is for me everyday for the last three years. But the first thing to do is to accept that you have an "issue"( that's how we call it). You can also find companies that will help you with the supplies (All Meds). Diabetes it is not what it used to be.
Be strong and remember it is up to you!!!!! Good luck!!!

Whoa! You covered a lot of stuff there. I take anti-depressants,too, and have for many years. I guess my brain just doesn't produce something it's supposed to. Keep taking your medications for depression.
I personally hate being diabetic. But, my life hasn't gone down the tubes because of it. I just started using insulin. You should have seen me the first time I had to give myself a shot!! It should have been on America's Funniest Home Videos!
One of my problems was that I had allergic reactions to the oral medications. The insulin seems to be working better than the oral medications.
Diabetes runs in my Mom's side of the family which I didn't know until I was diagnosed with it. Stress can be a big factor, too. I was controlling it with diet and exercise, then my brother died which was MAJOR stress and I couldn't control the diabetes myself anymore.
Ya know, there's lots of worse things out there and there's been tons of new discoveries and things that help us out a lot. My doctor says that in the very foreseeable future, we can inhale insulin like a nasal spray!
Keep your spirits up. Pamper yourself a little (nice long warm bath, hot cup of tea (no sugar!), good book). It helps.