Hi everyone! Well, I guess I should say that I have been suffering from PTSD and Major Depression for over 8 years, when I was 4 years old. I grew up with an abusive, alchoholic father who abused my mother in front of me, and then abused me for 3 years. He has said he was sorry, and I forgave him, but he continued, and I can't stand to be lied to anymore. I can't forgive him anymore, and I'm deathly scared of him. Now when someone talks to me or something, I jump, startled. I get startled very easily. I get flashbacks of what he did to me and at night, I have nightmares of it. No one seems to understand. I don't think about it or anything and it pops up. I cry alot, and am depressed all the time. I never smile anymore. If I do, it's a fake smile. Sometimes, I feel like I can't go on, but I'm doing my best to cope with this. Thanks, guys.