I feel like I want to be alone but on the other hand I'm feeling lonely. I tend to snub my family whom I love the most, it's like there's a barrier in between me and them. I'm feeling really guilty for doing this, but I feel so bad about myself. I'm so scared that they think I dont love them.

Can anyone relate?

I can absolutely relate to that. Makes you think youre crazy doesnt it. That barrier you re feeling is the wall depression creates. Its not your fault . Does your family understand about your depression ? maybe youre afraid they dont. I m sure the love you feel for them is returned. If you find it difficult to talk to them about this face to face maybe you could write a letter explaining how disturbing this is to you and that you are working on it .Tell them its hard for you to talk about. It could open up a whole new feeling for you.It could help them understand what youre going through and assure you they are on your side. All this guilt you feel is one of the negatives that depression brings on and it definitely hinders you but if you can communicate this to them, you will get some relief and that will definitely help. Remember , your family loves you but they may not know how you feel unless you tell them.
I hope you are feeling better about this soon..... :angel: Mizzy

I agree totally. I love my friends and family very much, but lately because of my depression I have been avoiding them. I dont feel like being around anyone or talking very much. I haven't discussed my depression to much with my family, but I'm sure they wonder why I dont call or come around as much. I haven't talked to them because I think they might not understand. I'm sure your family loves you just like mine does. Maybe we should just talk to them and we would both feel better Good luck to you please write again and let me know how you are doing. Take Care.

Thanks for your replies. I feel cold and emotionless at times, although I am usually a warm person.