pucca_chick
06-15-2006, 10:24 AM
im not diagnosed or nething iver never bin to doc or shared any of this with ne1. but all my life aas far back as i can remeber i get these obbsessions. it can be over nething, a tv show, the characters, music, the artrists but nearly always its a person i vaguley know,want to know or do know.theyre almost always older than me tho.its not just a stupid little thought here and there, its all day. i go outside and spend hours going over scenarios that never happend, will never happen. i build relationships with them in my head, invent conversations and situations that never happned. this can last for a long long time until it sort of just clicks off again ad then i find sumthing else.
wen i realise it there is always sum story in my head that im continuing. im 18 am i not rather old to be doing this. do other people do this. the thing is its never a sexual obbsession, just a strange freindly close relationship. i also have obbsessed over morbid thoughts before, i day dream about horrible traumatic situations and there affects for an hour or two at a time altho id be devasted if any of ti ever ever happened(is that evil???). sumtimes i just want to sit and be left alone to think, there is to much in my head and i dnt do things i shud do like school revision and stuff.i also spend hours sumtimes awake at night doing this, thinking harc about everything, obbsessions, people, and also people helping me is another major obbsessive thought and also i go over and over probelms, i esscalate them by accident, cover all scenarios over and over again-it gets a bit irrationale.
what is this. like i said im not diagnosed, i have had spells of having to take out plugs and switches, close drawers and cupboards, and i occasionally get intrusive thoughts and thoughts of me harming others-even tho i wudnt. plz help explain this, is this normal??? xox
wen i realise it there is always sum story in my head that im continuing. im 18 am i not rather old to be doing this. do other people do this. the thing is its never a sexual obbsession, just a strange freindly close relationship. i also have obbsessed over morbid thoughts before, i day dream about horrible traumatic situations and there affects for an hour or two at a time altho id be devasted if any of ti ever ever happened(is that evil???). sumtimes i just want to sit and be left alone to think, there is to much in my head and i dnt do things i shud do like school revision and stuff.i also spend hours sumtimes awake at night doing this, thinking harc about everything, obbsessions, people, and also people helping me is another major obbsessive thought and also i go over and over probelms, i esscalate them by accident, cover all scenarios over and over again-it gets a bit irrationale.
what is this. like i said im not diagnosed, i have had spells of having to take out plugs and switches, close drawers and cupboards, and i occasionally get intrusive thoughts and thoughts of me harming others-even tho i wudnt. plz help explain this, is this normal??? xox
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GatsbyLuvr1920
06-15-2006, 12:33 PM
In a word, "yes." You pretty much described me with the "scenarios" that you make up in your head. I do that all of the time, mostly with people I've made up, though, not actual people. I do have to recite movie/TV quotes out loud and "become" the person, but I only make up new situations with my cartoon characters that I've created. I've done it all of my life, too (I'll be 19 in August), and is why I loved playing with Barbies because I could just sit and talk to myself. Do you get actual obsessions with the TV shows or artists themselves? Like, you have to research everything about them, or you stockpile facts and information on them that you can recite at the drop of a hat? I do this as well. Write back soon, and if you have any questions, feel free to ask! :angel:
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pucca_chick
06-15-2006, 01:20 PM
OMG yes!! ive always done that. i can entertain myself all day, i love being on my own sumtimes cos sumtimes its just more interestting. wen i was yong i cud invent all sorts of characters and play in my head, i loved playing barbies and figures cos i had so many little worlds.
and yes, i get compleltey obbessed. as in i search and searchj the net for interveiws, pictures, anything.once i was obssesed with the tv show charmed, i eneded up collecting over 800 pictures if tghem from the net, i stuck them about the place, used them as wallpapers and everything for my comp. i have got obbsessed over artists too, like searched and spent alot of money on stuff like albums and merchandise. is but were does normal obbsession end and unhealthy begin. tell me about sum of ur obbsessions. thanx xox
and yes, i get compleltey obbessed. as in i search and searchj the net for interveiws, pictures, anything.once i was obssesed with the tv show charmed, i eneded up collecting over 800 pictures if tghem from the net, i stuck them about the place, used them as wallpapers and everything for my comp. i have got obbsessed over artists too, like searched and spent alot of money on stuff like albums and merchandise. is but were does normal obbsession end and unhealthy begin. tell me about sum of ur obbsessions. thanx xox
GatsbyLuvr1920
06-15-2006, 05:11 PM
Hey, pucca chick! Well, I have both OCD and Asperger's (high-functioning autism), so I have a lot of obsessions, both good and bad. My Asperger's brings the obsessions about the TV shows/movies, as well as Frank Sinatra, the 1920's, American history, biochemistry, neuropsychology, and a slew of other things. These are the things that I have to research about endlessly for new information. However, I enjoy embracing these obsessions. My OCD obsessions are what are hell, though. My main OCD obsessions are of a sexual, blasphemous, and violent nature, and when I'm in a waxing period (I'm in a waning period, now), I obsess the whole day. Sometimes I'll get incapacitated, and I can't get out of bed because I'm paralyzed with fear and panic attacks. Anyway, for TV shows, my obsessions mostly revolve around I Love Lucy. I collect Lucy memorabillia; I have been since my 13th birthday. My birthday, ironically, is the same day as Lucille Ball's, and my due date is Vivian Vance (Ethel)'s birthday! I was literally destined! I also am highly interested in Degrassi: The Next Generation, as well as certain cartoons, especially Ed, Edd n Eddy. I love that show because Double D is like a male version of myself- an obsessive-compulsive science geek! :D For movies, I have three favorites: Chicago, The Aviator, and A Beautiful Mind. I love the last two because they deal with mental illness (The Aviator is actually about OCD) and how it can cause people to be ostracized by the public. It also shows the relationship between mental illness and intelligence, and how psychological disorders inhibit one's creativity. When I'm upset, I watch them because it's the only thing that shows how I'm feeling. As for Chicago, I know every line, song, and gesture in the movie, and I usually only watch it alone (along with the other two) because I HAVE to say certain quotes and make certain movements. I have an odd ability to mimic accents and intonations, so that's why I repeat movie quotes a lot. What are some of yours? :angel:
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fallen_angel
06-15-2006, 05:11 PM
this is really interesting, this thread has only just jogged my memory but from the age of about 5 or 6 i used to do what i called "making up stories" where id shut myself im my mum's room and act out all these make believe worlds with characters etc id invented, always talking out loud and prancing about the room, this continued right through til i was about 12, id get really embarrased if anyone overheard or caught me. i also used to write make believe newspaper articles and stories often involving famous people, and again id be really embarrased if anyone saw or read them and id hide what i was writing if anyone came in.
As ive gotten older its now been replaced with flying around the room with my cd player turned up full blast, acting out situations in my head and imagining certain things happening that id like to. Again i get embarrased if anyone catches me doing this as i know its not really normal, but i cant function properly unless i do it, i guess it helps to calm my mind.
Ive just been diagnosed bipolar and wonder if this influences this kind of behaviour in me, i did have OCD from the age of about 7 through until i was around 14 but its calmed right down now
As ive gotten older its now been replaced with flying around the room with my cd player turned up full blast, acting out situations in my head and imagining certain things happening that id like to. Again i get embarrased if anyone catches me doing this as i know its not really normal, but i cant function properly unless i do it, i guess it helps to calm my mind.
Ive just been diagnosed bipolar and wonder if this influences this kind of behaviour in me, i did have OCD from the age of about 7 through until i was around 14 but its calmed right down now
pucca_chick
06-15-2006, 06:57 PM
lol, ive had a few. i had one with the power rangers wen i was little, then ive had ones were i was obbsessed with charmed, buffy and stuff.id spend hours on the net finding out more and more till i just kept finding the same info everywere-there was nuthin else to know. i had hundreds of pictures, id sit and make up my own stories with the charcters, i was the characters in my head in the story too. if its about people too i wouldnt stop talking about them constantly, everything that is said i bring back to relate to that person, i get all exited too, and wen i meet them i so nervous even if its just sum1 i hardly know.
i sumtimes wen im thinking of these stories about real life pple i wud mouth the words. dnt know y, dnt even realise it sumtimes-embarressing. i enjoy most of my obbsessions tho. does this have nething to do with a disorder or does every1 do it?
thanx xox
i sumtimes wen im thinking of these stories about real life pple i wud mouth the words. dnt know y, dnt even realise it sumtimes-embarressing. i enjoy most of my obbsessions tho. does this have nething to do with a disorder or does every1 do it?
thanx xox
indecisivelyn
06-22-2006, 12:01 AM
All I can say is wow!! I do the scenario thing too! I did it a lot tonight while my husband was at school and my kids were asleep. I just put on my headphones cranked the tunes and created stories. I never knew of anyone else doing it. I have to say though in these scenarios, I'm somehow the star even if ther person who is the main character doesn't look or act like me.
stevie_23
06-26-2006, 04:14 AM
Oh wow, hey Pucca chick yet again!
This is me. I've never mentioned this at all cause it didn't come up, but I've always been like this in different ways.
When I was 8 or so I was in love with Christopher Reeve from the old Superman movies, and then Matthew Broderick. (why this was, I don't really know, considering I'm now gay, but whatever! LOL)
Then ever since I was 12, it's just been a CONSTANT string of people I have absolute obsessions with. They are always older than me, (usually quite a bit older) and always known, like, famous. Right now it's Stevie Nicks (hence my name! :blob_fire LOL How embarrassing!)...
Anyway...I actually find that at any given time if I DON'T have someone who I'm obsessed with, I actually feel bored and sort of...lifeless in a way. Like there's not as much excitement around me. How lame is that?
But like for me, it's sort of not sexual either exactly...these things...make up scenarios and fake relationships with these people. It's more just, like, being really REALLY close to the person, like best friends but more...you know? Like, the closest friendship at all possible.
In fact, last night I was having one of my day dream things where Stevie had come to visit me in my mansion (not real. LOL My place is nice but no mansion) and I took her down the beach and then she played on my grand piano (also made up, LOL)...*blushing*
I'm listening to Fleetwood Mac now...I've watched various DVDs with Stevie in them a million times...*shrug*
Anyway, yeah...
This is me. I've never mentioned this at all cause it didn't come up, but I've always been like this in different ways.
When I was 8 or so I was in love with Christopher Reeve from the old Superman movies, and then Matthew Broderick. (why this was, I don't really know, considering I'm now gay, but whatever! LOL)
Then ever since I was 12, it's just been a CONSTANT string of people I have absolute obsessions with. They are always older than me, (usually quite a bit older) and always known, like, famous. Right now it's Stevie Nicks (hence my name! :blob_fire LOL How embarrassing!)...
Anyway...I actually find that at any given time if I DON'T have someone who I'm obsessed with, I actually feel bored and sort of...lifeless in a way. Like there's not as much excitement around me. How lame is that?
But like for me, it's sort of not sexual either exactly...these things...make up scenarios and fake relationships with these people. It's more just, like, being really REALLY close to the person, like best friends but more...you know? Like, the closest friendship at all possible.
In fact, last night I was having one of my day dream things where Stevie had come to visit me in my mansion (not real. LOL My place is nice but no mansion) and I took her down the beach and then she played on my grand piano (also made up, LOL)...*blushing*
I'm listening to Fleetwood Mac now...I've watched various DVDs with Stevie in them a million times...*shrug*
Anyway, yeah...
stevie_23
06-26-2006, 04:19 AM
Oh sorry, I forgot the thing about mouthing words and occasionally facial expressions too to accompany the scenarios in my head, even when I'm in public! LOL
When I'm alone, sometimes I'll talk to myself as if talking in the scenario, like...you know? As opposed to just thinking it.
In public it's all internal, but at times I have to stop my mouth from moving slightly...a few times I've been walking somewhere not crowded and wasn't too aware of myself, and then saw someone walking nearby looking at me weirdly and I realise my mouth's been moving or I've been making expressions at nothing. LMAO. I sort of look at them like, "What's your problem!?" like they're the weirod, not me. Heheh.
I met someone else who did this too, she was really nice and otherwise normal. :) Very intelligent. Sometimes she'd actually be talking outloud to herself in public. One time she was so lost in her own world she was actually drooling! (and yes she WAS normal! LOL)
When I'm alone, sometimes I'll talk to myself as if talking in the scenario, like...you know? As opposed to just thinking it.
In public it's all internal, but at times I have to stop my mouth from moving slightly...a few times I've been walking somewhere not crowded and wasn't too aware of myself, and then saw someone walking nearby looking at me weirdly and I realise my mouth's been moving or I've been making expressions at nothing. LMAO. I sort of look at them like, "What's your problem!?" like they're the weirod, not me. Heheh.
I met someone else who did this too, she was really nice and otherwise normal. :) Very intelligent. Sometimes she'd actually be talking outloud to herself in public. One time she was so lost in her own world she was actually drooling! (and yes she WAS normal! LOL)
stevie_23
06-26-2006, 04:24 AM
LMAO sorry! Just one more thing to add! I also try to look and sound like the person too. Like, I've been obsessed with Stevie since about February 2004 (my obsessions are usually fairly long...the longest was 7 years and it was sort of sad when I realised I was losing interest finally) and earlier this year the obsession intensified after seeing her live in concert twice (SOOO GOOD!) and I then got my hair done more like her's (back in the 70s)...and sometimes try to speak like her (without the US accent since I'm Australian).
Yeah, sad I know!
I'll shut up now! LOL
Yeah, sad I know!
I'll shut up now! LOL
ArtsyAthlete
06-27-2006, 05:24 PM
When I was a teenager, I did the exact same thing. I would fantasize and/or obsess about people, television shows, or relationships that I was in or wanted to be in. It was always changing too. It would be an intense obsession for a few months, and then it would move on to something else. I also wrote out elaborate stories to sort of live my obsessions out in my mind. Writing made the fantasy a little more tangible. I sort of lived in a world of my own making, in my own mind. I also wrote myself into favorite television shows... that life seemed so much better than what I really had.
When I was little, I got picked on a lot. I had one friend and the only adult close to me was my dad. My mom wasn't mean, but kind of distant (she was clinically depressed as I was growing up). I was lonely and aching for friendships and relationships -- for love and validation. I think this is why my obsessions were mostly about members of the opposite gender.
I'm 35 now and still have obsessions, but they have taken on different forms. It's less about relationships and more about creative endeavors. I have a desperate need to express myself creatively and I'm always doing something different. The obsessions will last for a few months or sometimes up to a year, and then it will change to something else. It's like I always have to have something to obsess about. I wouldn't consider this a problem if it didn't interfere with my ability to focus on my job or drive me to make unwise decisions. I often spend a lot of money feeding my obsessions and this has caused problems in my relationship with my fiance. :(
Well, I hope that it helps you to know that you're not the only one. I waited a LONG time to get help for my obsessiveness and I've created a lot of problems for myself as a result.
I think you can take this as a sign that you should seek help from a good therapist. Nip it in the bud. :)
When I was little, I got picked on a lot. I had one friend and the only adult close to me was my dad. My mom wasn't mean, but kind of distant (she was clinically depressed as I was growing up). I was lonely and aching for friendships and relationships -- for love and validation. I think this is why my obsessions were mostly about members of the opposite gender.
I'm 35 now and still have obsessions, but they have taken on different forms. It's less about relationships and more about creative endeavors. I have a desperate need to express myself creatively and I'm always doing something different. The obsessions will last for a few months or sometimes up to a year, and then it will change to something else. It's like I always have to have something to obsess about. I wouldn't consider this a problem if it didn't interfere with my ability to focus on my job or drive me to make unwise decisions. I often spend a lot of money feeding my obsessions and this has caused problems in my relationship with my fiance. :(
Well, I hope that it helps you to know that you're not the only one. I waited a LONG time to get help for my obsessiveness and I've created a lot of problems for myself as a result.
I think you can take this as a sign that you should seek help from a good therapist. Nip it in the bud. :)
r12las
06-28-2006, 10:34 PM
I am actually quite frightened by the fact that I thought this was completely typical to everyone!!
Obviously, although experienced by many, it is not as mainstream as I assumed, oh dear another thing to worry about lol!!
Regards to all,
Best Wishes
r12las xx
Obviously, although experienced by many, it is not as mainstream as I assumed, oh dear another thing to worry about lol!!
Regards to all,
Best Wishes
r12las xx
loufrank
07-25-2007, 09:46 PM
I am 31 and have the Stevie Nicks obsession too! Since I was 13. I have seen her in concert over 20 times!!!! It is finally starting to die down and become more managable as I get older. I can actually enjoy one concert without obsessing that I want to go to 4 more...the worst part is that I met her backstage several years ago (I was interning for a radio station), and I totally choked! For years, I replayed that situation in my head with saddness. I just saw her in concert this summer, and I'm not sure what's different (maybe the lamictal, lol), but I'm getting much calmer. I can enjoy the show without trying to force myself into the front row, lol. Although I do go to the stage at the end for her "stage walk" at Edge of 17 and I did shake her hand. So I guess I'm not 100% cured.