Hey guys.

Just needed to say a few things but I dont really know how, the title says it all i suppose. Im still really scared and just seem to be stuck in this place with four walls and no doors it's mad, Im trying to stay strong on the outside like i go home and talk to my family and friends and still smile, coz i dont want them to see my pain.

I moved in with my boyfriend and his family, being around him somehow seems to really help. His family dont know anything and my family are still shocked and look at me in a different way, I know im prob being paranoid about that, but since i told them its not been mentioned again, so i thought i was better off out of that environment.

Im really trying to accept it, ive been talking to people and seeing doctors, and they're really all great but its prob easy for them to say these things because they're not going through it. I need to move forward and accept it and im trying but im trying to rebuild my future coz the future i used to see has gone and im trying to rebuild one, but its hard and im scared of it.

Thanks for reading and any advice, Also thanks to everyone who's been so great in the past, Your great people
Jen xx

I wish I knew what to say Jen.

Do they have any support groups in your area? I don't know if that's something you would be ready for or not, but perhaps that could help. It sounds like you could use someone to talk to about all of this that isn't one of your doctors.

Best of luck.

Chris

Hey Jen,
I can only imagine what you're going through. And I HAVE imagined it.
I can't give any real advice as it must be hell for you, but whats in your head will dictate how you feel, and changing that is so, so hard.

I truley hope you can get some relief soon.
Chris's idea about a support group is a good one - at least it would be for me.
Its sounds as if you have so much to say but no-one to share it with.
Get out and meet some other positive people and share your feelings with them.
And keep posting on here - I am not around on here as much as I used to be (it keeps scaring me so I have tried to bury the whole thing until after my next test) but I will keep an eye out for you.

Keep yer pecker up girl :-)
x

cheers mex you've been great

Jen,
I'm not great at all. I am a cheating scumbag.
I have an 11 week test Weds and am just as scared as I have ever been.
I am hoping that it will be negative and then I will be able to be here more for you and anyone else.

Have you thought about the support group thing ?
I know that if I turn out pos then I will be doing just that.

And Jen - you are great too, i haven't forgotten how you were there for me when I needed it. I dunno how I'd have gotten through that night without you being there.
Keep thinking positive (thats a strange thing to say) and take things slow.
I just wish there was something I could say to make things better for you.
xx

Jen

Your situation is the simalar as mine but the opposite. My post is on here. My bf has just been diagnosed pos and me neg. Ive just had to move out of my house and my family arnt talking to me. This is all over the results. Im now living with my bf and his family. I cant forgive them for being like this. My bf is in a bad way and he needs me. Just oot to be strong and yes I know its so hard at times.
Is your bf helping you through this? I know how he is feeling and he should be helping you loads although it is very scary for the both of you. You family are just shocked and scared, trying to get on with life although they are probaly always thinking about it.
Theres a website that u can go on, even your bf if hes finding things hard. [ REMOVED ] and talk about your experiences with this. I found it helpful to talk to people in the same boat

Take care

Charlie :angel:

Mex - Just by being here you make me feel better, I hope everything goes ok on wed ill be here for you.

Charlie x - my bf Is going through worse, he blames himself for everything thats happening to me, I know he wants to forget everything and the fact he is positive and stay focused, i try to be there for him and support him and tell him everything will be fine and we're slowly getting there together, His strength amazes me.

Im looking into support groups i think thats my next step.

Jen x

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Jen - how you doing ?
Sorted anything out yet ?

Hey Mex,
Im so happy to read about your negative test reuslts, Im realy pleased for you, move forward and up :-)

Im alright actually today mex been working so that helps take my mind off of stuff, I have been given alot of support over the last week, been in touch with groups etc but im generally feeling much more happier about things.

Im taking one step at a time, but its working and im moving on slowly, yeah its still really hard but im getting there.

Mex, seriously thanks for being here for me these past weeks/months. You truely are a good person and i thank you from the bottom of my heart.

To the future aye. x

I am so glad to hear you are feeling a bit better.

I am sure you are gonna be OK Jen. I really hope you and your bf sort things properly and can be happy.
Keep in touch and post when you need.
x

Jen, that's wonderful!! I'm happy for you and I'm so glad things are looking brighter. :)