helpmepls
06-26-2006, 11:05 AM
Im sure your very busy but hope you could find the time to give me some advice,and I apologise if this is a little long winded.
A little backround first doc.
*Briefly(in then out)inserted in a prostitute in China unprotected then pulled out again.
*I instantly decided from the moment I pulled out that I had become infected and hence for 4 month aids research/obsession began.
*2 days after exposure I got diarrea and vomiting for two days
*Also moved into loss of appetite, malaise, low grade fever and swollen glands,flu symptoms,
Got heavily depressed and started drinking quite heavily,constant stress and cigarettes. For 3-4 months.
*About a week ago got strange pain feeling in my groin which was then followed by (or coincided with) a rash on my inner thighs which could also be jock itch,as im in very humid conditions.
*Next day I started sneezing all day and the next day was quite blocked up and neck glands began to swell
*Then for the last week I have felt a little flu’y or just unwell,malaise perhaps,and both my groin nodes and neck seem to go on and off.
*I have also been very tired even after sleeping
Ok now I have read every possible bit of available information on the interne(a big no no I know),and although the chances per one exposure are relatively small I am 100% convinced I have contracted hiv(the 40 million people had to get it somehow didn’t they) and have lived with this for 4 months so far.
My question is not whether i should test or not as I know you will say I should take a test as the symptoms don’t exactly appear encouraging.
Its that Im working in another country which would permanently deport me if I was sick(which I don’t want even with hiv) so I was planning to test in September when I return home. Get some meds and return to finish my dream before im too sick to do so.
I am just worried that my hiv has already progressed quicker than most people and I could be looking down aids street unless I go home to be tested.
Id appreciate your most honest opinion about the dangers of my staying here another few months.
I am so crippled in fear ,guilt,regret and sadness about the one time in my life I have had unprotected sex,am working in china alone and have no one in the world to ask for advice.
Kind Regards.
A little backround first doc.
*Briefly(in then out)inserted in a prostitute in China unprotected then pulled out again.
*I instantly decided from the moment I pulled out that I had become infected and hence for 4 month aids research/obsession began.
*2 days after exposure I got diarrea and vomiting for two days
*Also moved into loss of appetite, malaise, low grade fever and swollen glands,flu symptoms,
Got heavily depressed and started drinking quite heavily,constant stress and cigarettes. For 3-4 months.
*About a week ago got strange pain feeling in my groin which was then followed by (or coincided with) a rash on my inner thighs which could also be jock itch,as im in very humid conditions.
*Next day I started sneezing all day and the next day was quite blocked up and neck glands began to swell
*Then for the last week I have felt a little flu’y or just unwell,malaise perhaps,and both my groin nodes and neck seem to go on and off.
*I have also been very tired even after sleeping
Ok now I have read every possible bit of available information on the interne(a big no no I know),and although the chances per one exposure are relatively small I am 100% convinced I have contracted hiv(the 40 million people had to get it somehow didn’t they) and have lived with this for 4 months so far.
My question is not whether i should test or not as I know you will say I should take a test as the symptoms don’t exactly appear encouraging.
Its that Im working in another country which would permanently deport me if I was sick(which I don’t want even with hiv) so I was planning to test in September when I return home. Get some meds and return to finish my dream before im too sick to do so.
I am just worried that my hiv has already progressed quicker than most people and I could be looking down aids street unless I go home to be tested.
Id appreciate your most honest opinion about the dangers of my staying here another few months.
I am so crippled in fear ,guilt,regret and sadness about the one time in my life I have had unprotected sex,am working in china alone and have no one in the world to ask for advice.
Kind Regards.