I'm new here, and I have a question. For the past year I have had a problem. I got this idea in my head that my future to be mother in law dosen't like me. I don't know why because she is always nice to me. Anyway, ever since then I have been obsessing over it. I would constantly think about it day and night-does she hate me? Did I do something to make her mad? Is she trying to get to me? It even got to the point that I went to phsycics about it! I do that with other things, too. Last night when I went to bed I couldn't fall asleep because I was afraid that my cat was going to kill my guinea pig. I supressed the urge to check on him. I seem to do this with a lot of things. I was convinced that I was going to be killed or hurt in some way by a guy that had a crush on me even though he never even got close to me. He came into the store where I worked.I got scared and nervous when he came in. Last month I got it in my head that my co worker is jealous of me. I scrutinize her every move and I'm convinced she has hidden motives. I even drove by her house a few times for no reason. It's embarassing, what if she saw me??I get something in my head and it's like my mind is stuck and it keeps playing over and over to the point if I don't try and stop it I feel like it's consuming me. It seems stupid even to me that I constantly think about things. I'm embarassed to see my family because thats all I talk about. (whatever I'm obsessing about at the time.) I'm now convinced that somethings not right, wether it's ocd or something else. I don't have "rituals" though. If I found some ritual to alleviate the problem(besides smoking constantly) I would do it. I almost wish I had ocd just so I would know what's wrong. Could this be the pure o form of ocd? I dont have thoughts that scare me, I just analze things over and over and over and over untill I get frustrated. I would like to know what's wrong but I don't know if I should go to a doctor about it because it's not interupting my daily life. I feel like I can deal with it, but at times I get so so tierd of feeling this way. For the past two days I have been obsessing about if I have ocd or not and what people would think if i did. I felt anxious all day at work and I feel lkie I might go nuts. "Then I think- "what if I'm just blowing it out of porportion?" I told someone at work about how I cant get things out of my head and he said to relax and do something I enjoy.I can't! My thoughts are consumed with different situations, are my parents going to die? was it my fault my cat died(a year ago). Normal people don't analyze everything to death over and over. Well, I will shut up now. Thanks!