I guess I am just a worrier and I dont mean to burden anyone out here cos we are all here cos you have serious issues on our minds.

But I am still so scared. My fiance is going to get his test results tomorow morning. I prayed so much..... I dont know how likely it is. The doctor just said that he has high white blood cell counts means that his body must be fighing some sort of Virus. The he sugested he get an HIV test. He said it was not very likely but wanted to get that out of the way....

I have lost 6pounds in 3days cos I have not been eating. All I do is worry and cry.

i want to find out but I am too scared to find out..
What do I do if he is HIV+?
How do I tell my family? MY friends and how do I plan my wedding for next year. Parents are having so much stress in their lives now... I dont even know how to tell then. I might give them a heart attack. I am never sick. I never get colds or flus... infact i have not had a cold in the last 2years. So thats why I am so scared.

If he is positive does it mean I am too?

i am so sorry to be blurting out all I am feeling here. I have no one else to talk to. cos this is not something you discuss with friends.
Someone help me or pray for us or somesthing please.....

Thanks...

Savannah: since you last posted on your other post, you decided to post an even more intense question (twenty minutes later?!). The fact of the matter is that you can only deal with these issue one step at a time. You simply cannot take in all that this will mean for you unless you know which direction you have to put your efforts.

There are tons of reasons why his lymphocytes may be off. And, while the doctor is wise to test all possibilities, the only way he could know what he is dealing with is to eliminate all of those possibilities one at a time. For example, would you be handling this any better if you thought that the doctor might be looking at a cancer diagnosis? Or, are your emotions so out of kilter, because of the emotional package that HIV carries with it?

I suspect that whether the test comes back positive or negative, you will be able to more forward. You need to make sure, however, that you remain connected here so that we can assist you either way. Our prayers will be with you tomorrow as you await the results of the test. (I won't attempt to answer any of the "what ifs" until we know exactly what we're dealing with, OK?) chris