I'll try to keep this post short as I can and not ramble 2 much so please be patient. I really need advice. I am a 32 year old male. In January 2004 I turned 30 years old, I've basically never had a job (I have a college degree)and I've stayed with my mother who is elderly and brother who is handicapped. Up until that time I've always been for the exception of mild hypocondria been mentally stable with no history of drug abuse. A very clear headed but lazy person.
In April 2004 I noticed that I began to feel a bit strange like I had drank 3 or 4 beers yet I was totally sober.
A few months later my brother was diagnosed with a spinal chord tumor and it raised my anxiety level and I felt more zoned. I was very concerned about this and then in September of 2004 my other bro out of the total blue in a speed induced panic attempted suicide by lighting himself on fire. I was already freaked out about my zoning out and this sent me into a panic. I then learned that my family had a bit of a history of mental problems. My grandfather who most thought had old age really had schizophrenia as my cousin does though he did take alot of drugs.
My bro survived though he did die about 6 month's ago out of the hospital from alchol overdose. Since then I've been a caregiver from my other bro with the spinal chord tumor and his health is improving though I still don't work.
All throughout this time I felt varying degrees of feeling zoned but I worked through it though at times it was hard.
About a month ago I woke up feeling totally clear and I'm like it's over I'm well again. The next day I began to feel like I had a high fever and was sorta delirious, my eyes hurt with no headache. When I feel this way I feel like a person does when they are feverish and there thoughts are kinda off. I basically feel like I'm panicked and things seem strange like the devil himself is comming to get me. I also had weird dreams like people were trying to signal me by flashing lights through my bedroom windows. I also had some stomach problems at the same time. I went to the doc and they gave me 9 basic blood tests for liver function,bladder urine....and all clear. :)
I was better for a week or so then it began to happen again (Eyes hurting, feeling somewhat delirious,anxiety) It's always the worst at night because it seems to sneak up on me during the day. These past two years have been hell and it bothers me cause I've never dealt with stuff like this before. I've saw my family doctor before and he seems to just think it's anxiety. I act perfectly normal but I sure don't feel perfectly normal. :confused:
On a scale of one to ten the feeling of strangeness is around 5. At times I feel like I'm in a sheer personal hell. Has anyone had this happen to them? Is it stress? Mental Illness? I have had major issues in my life and has it caught up with me? Any thoughts would be appreciated.

From what you have described, it sounds as if you are suffering from stress and anxiety. I think you would benifit from a visit to a psychiatrist. It isn't going to do you any harm and may actually provide you with the help you are needing and clearly wanting.

I would have to agree with the other post. A family doctor is in no way capable of properly diagnosing you as merely having anxiety. You've been under a lot of stress, and you also have a family history of mental illness. Stress can infact trigger a mental illness. Only a psychiatrist can proper assess you.

I agree with the other posters that you need to go to a professional psyche rather than your family doctor for this problem. I think you will be glad you did if you do take this advice.