I know alot of people are going to laugh becuase people have this idea that pot is not addictive. Well i beg to differ! The reason I starrted was because it "wasnt addictive" like the "hard core" drugs. Well I went on to become a meth addict as well as using other drugs. I woke up finally and quit everything except pot. It got me througth the withdrawls and whenever I thought about a cig or meth I would just smoke a bowl. Well I have smoked weed almost everyday now for over 10 years. Well I did quit for 5 months (I DID have withdrwals, not severe though like meth) last year but here I am again. What made me wake up is the fact that I dont have any and I am going insane wanting it. The sad part is I even have the money but my dealer is out. I feel like I am so anxious I will explode. I have got to the point where all my stuff is in the pawn shop and all I do is think about getting high. I am now wanting to go smoke cigarettes again just so I have somthing to smoke. I think it is such a major problem because I am an addict and in a sense still addicted to those other drugs but have been masking with the weed. I want to break free! How do I get over this feeeling? It is so intense. If I never did it in the first place I would not feel like this. I need help but I have 2 kids and I am very afraid. They arent in any danger and they have everything they need. They are my strength and if I was to be put away I dont think I could live without them by my side. Although if I dont get help they wont have much of a mom either. Help!

This is going to sound stupid....but I had a friend who quit smoking cigarettes and weed by smoking cinnamon sticks whenever he had the urge to smoke...He did that for a few weeks and it worked for him....dont know how, but it did...so there ya go...theres some advice.

Some other advice would be to smoke pipe tobacco. Addictive, yes, but at the same time not as bad as cigarettes, or as habit forming and can replace the act of smoking a bowl.

Either way, obviously getting stoned everyday has not been a positive point in your life. Your dealer being out of stash sounds like a clear omen that it is time to stop....so stop...might not be easy, but the timing is right....just do it and get on with your life....

Thats all the advice I have for now...

MamaL-
I'm glad you found the boards. Addiction to anything is a terrible monster to fight, but you have made the right choice.

You say that your children are not in danger, but sweetie, your pot smoking does place them in danger of losing their mom. If you were to get busted, your children would pay the biggest price of all.

Please be strong, and know that you can beat this thing. Try and get through this urge and just think about being a good mom for your kids. Whatever you need to do to get through this. You aren't alone. People here are willing to help give you some moral support and no one will judge you for any reason.

You can do this. You have every reason to do this. Best wishes sweetie.

Lezlee

You need to find something that interests you and will keep you busy.Are you working???Play any sports???Or how about an exercise program to start out,you don't really need money for that.Start by doing stretches for 15-20 minutes then go out for a long walk.You would be surprised at what this can do for your head.Good luck and stay away from the weed it just makes people unmotivated.....Dave:)