:dizzy: Yesterday, my husband came home from work and told me that he has an Appt. with a Doctor to get a blood test for his hormone level and discuss his 'pain' in his kidneys. He said,"I got the first Appt. I could get--Aug. 7th! Until then, I'm not going to take the new med. the PDOC gave me. I think my 'problem' maybe from my low testostrone levels. I've read that it can cause really bad depression and no sex drive." Well...I'm at the point now that I want him to do whatever he needs to do to face his denial. I'm not saying that he doesn't have problems with his hormone level! Who knows? Maybe he does! :confused: I'm just soooo tired! If he needs to do this in order to 'accept' that he has a real mental health disorder--then so be it! I'm sure it's very hard to face the fact that you are sick. I just keep praying that he will come to that fact on his own...and SOON!!! I am really looking forward to going to my counseling session this next week!!! I need it so bad!! :dizzy:

My husband has gone through the gamut of excuses as to why he feels the way he does. Sometimes he seems as if he is accepting of his bipolar, and other times he is the exact opposite. His favorite reason for feeling this way is me. I make him crazy. I say stupid or rude things, or I give him strange looks. There are hidden meanings in the seemingly benign things I say. I asked him once if he took one a bite of the caprese I made for a party. He lost his mind. What kind of person did I think he was that he would eat something made for a party?? I must really think he was a huge loser to take a bite...etc. Sometimes I don't even have to say anything. He gets worked up all on his own, I don't even have to be there. However it is my fault.

Some days it is his mother's fault...sometimes it is his job.

For he last few weeks though he seems to be dealing with it, and he seems to be taking responsibility. I hope to god is lasts.

crumn, yup! Sounds like my husband!

Kymberlee, I have two sessions with two different therapists on Monday. Boy do I need it. The bummer is after I go and see them I walk away feeling hopeful that she'll come back. Right now and beginning to pull away, then I see them and it all starts again....Oz :)

Oz--I understand your ups & downs!