My last hydro was yesterday @ 11:00 am, which I was only taking the 5/500 mg. I only had a total of 4 yesterday. I took a total of 3 immodiums yesterday and I drank 1 beer and then I threw up. (sorry everyone)
I really want to do it this time I want to be done with this stupid stuff.
I called the other day to try and get in and see a councelor but the soonest I could get in was 8-7. I am working during this also which I think really helps keep the mind busy, but I hate going to work and not accomplishing much!
Ok I just wanted to update everyone! I am waiting for today to be crappy and hoping it turns out ok! I thought about not taking any immodium today because I would like to be feeling better by Sunday @ least Monday.
I have been withdrawing like every other day it seems lack of sources.

Ok cya and is anyone on day 1/ 2????
HAVE A GREAT DAY :blob_fire

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You can do it!! Just hang in there and better days will come.

Wishing you a great day and the best of luck to you!:)

Istherelight :angel:

Iwanto-
I'm sending thoughts your way for a good day sweetie. You can do it because you are worth it. We are here for you no matter what.

((((Big Hugs))))

Lezlee

:wave: Hey there!! I am proud of you, one day at a time, sweet Jesus, is all we ask of You!! This thing of withdrawal is a slow process, but a great one. It is necessary to feel yucky for a while, just look at it like this: when you are feeling bad it is your body's way of getting healthy again, when you are feeling sad, mad, glad, happy, weird, weepy, depressed and gross it is your brains way of returning to normal also. Once everything is out of your system you will be like a new person. So hang in there I promise it is all worth it.:dizzy:
I am praying that you will have a good day and soon start to feel some normalacy in your life again. with love, cleanblessed:angel:

Thanks everyone, once again I have failed but not to hard! I keep seeing everyone tappering etc! I am just trying to keep up with life! I don't know what to do! I need some one on one counceling I know this, and NA meetings by myself is very hard for me to do as I am shy! I just wish I had someone here with me in my state to do this with me/together. I told myself all day today (which really wasn't bad at all, just no energy) that hey it is going ok and tomorrow well I have all weekend to do nothing! then tonight I knew I could get some. That is why I feel I need to get totally away from this state! I really do, I have heard of people being like that. I know many people who take these devil's and I can always get one (well sometimes always, trust me I go without because the answer is NO, AND I cry)
THis life of pills suck and I totally will keep them away from anyone I know! Wether I hate them or not I warn them! Be CAREFULL!
I am trying everyone please don't give up on me! I am up for criticism and LOVE! I am just going through so much crap! I know right now would be a good time to quit! I want to prove to my man I can be pill free and still be bothered by the things he does! He drives me to them and I want that part to stop!

Ok I am done venting