Hi all..does anyone have any encouragement for me..heres the story..

ok, ive been doing GREAT in recovery and im soooo far along. Ive gained alot of my weight back and i have a little more to go. My anorexia began for me right when i hit puberty. Ya know the whole gaining weight on the hips stomach and thighs thingy. All of that freaked me out and thats when i lost freakin 20 pounds. Now its like i have to start that all over again. And im getting to the point where im gaining on my hips, stomach and thighs. I feel a strong urge to go backwards right now but i wont let myself. Someone please convince me this weight gain is a normal part of growing up because i think its just gross and unnecessary. :-/

Hi, I totally understand how you feel and it is normal. The hardest part of recovering for me has been to realize that I'm a woman now with cuves and flesh and not a little girl. I'm not sure what your age is but you have to try and realize that it is normal and that you're going to look so great once your at a healthy weight. Even if you don't see it at first others are going to look at you and go wow! You will be going from a stick figure to a figure with some curves and definition. I know it's easier said than done to accept this and it will be a struggle but over time it does start to get better. I've been in recovering for 3.5 years now and I have gained 41lbs! It's still a scary number for me to look at. You need to take it one day at a time. If my Dr. had told me 3years ago that he wanted me to put on 40lbs I would have told him to go to hell:dizzy: It happened gradually overtime and even though I felt I was out of control and gaining like crazy I pushed on. I've had set backs and I still have thoughts and struggles....it's not easy but it's worth it. As frustrated as I get now and even though I sometimes wish I was 10-20lbs lighter in the moments when I can clear my mind of those ugly voices and really look at my life I realize that I wouldn't have a life if I didn't recover and if I want a normal healthy life...if I want to be happy and not drive myself crazy then I need to keep going, like in the begining one day at a time. Good luck I'm pulling for you I know how hard it is.

hi just wanted to say that yr not going through it agin but u r like going throu it for the 1st time-you never allowed yrself to go throutgh it first time so somehow u need to go througth that now, it may not be easy but i ditto the last tread u deserve this to be healthy and illistrate yr beauty which u r
take grat care
keep striding 4ward and leaning to us for support
lorri