Hi everyone!! I've never posted on the ed board but visit here alot!! Not sure if I have an ed or maybe having early signs of one!! According too my height and weight I'm average but according to me I"M FAT..... It doesnt matter what I wear 90% of the time I feel big!! I weight myself everyday at least once! Somedays I try my hardest to not eat but always end up eating!! If I eat something fattening like fast food or something I throw it up! I feel so guilty if I eat something full of fat! It doesnt stop me from eating it but if I do I feel horrible afterwards and alot of times throw it up! If I eat something healthy or like a weight watcher meal I'm fine and never throw it up! My bf gets sick of me talking about being fat all the time but he doesnt understand I really feel that I'am!! Nobody knows about this but him! He has seen me throw up after eating fast food or something really unhealty! He kinda ignores that I'm even doing it! When I have a doctors appt i wont eat that whole day and very light the few days before just so I'll weight less!!! I have always been worried about my weight even when i was younger but according to the scales never been over weight!! Im 29 year old mother of two. My daughter is almost 12 and she is starting to worry about her weight. She's not over weight by any means, if anything under!!! I don't want her too be like me!!! My question is this..... Does this sound like an eating disorder....???? I'm not sure if I have maybe a slight one....I'm sick of worrying about how much I weigh every single day! It's like I'm obsessed with my weight! I do eat everyday tho, prob the right amount of calories I should be but it just worries me that I ave to throw up mcdonalds or wendys when I eat it! I still feel guilty even after I throw it up, wondering if maybe I didnt get it all up!! I don't so it every single time though, I kinda go thru stages where I will and then I wont for awhile....Anyone have any advice.... Thanks so much... sorry such a long post:confused:

carrie,, not sure if this is an all out ed but my md would say yes, she says anything that occupies your thoughts so much and prevents you from living a joyful life is a disorder. i am living just like you and i am older too with 3 kids. i think a lot of people assume it is just a teen problem, but this did not develop for me until i had my 1st child. i too am constantly weighing myself and have now gotten so bad i don't even like going out to eat or on vacations anymore because that equalsFAT in my head. it is a terrible way to live, especially with a family because i feel it is so unfair to them, i just cant enjoy much because this food thing occupies my thoughts all of the time. i finally talked about this with my gyno and she told me she would refer me to a psychiatrist who specializes in ed, but i declined because i would feel yucky being in therapy, like i'm a basket case or something. please keep me posted on if you decide to get help, it sounds like you want some too!! case

I didn't realize that my ed was one til my therapist confronted me about it. She gave me a mood diary, suggested that I write a food diary and a joural, and get a organizer so I would stop stressing and not eating. So, I guess I'm say that both you, case1, and you, Ccarrie76, should consider seeing a therapist.

I once mocked them and thought that they were like the therapist on Mad About You, but there not. One just needs to find one that you're comfortable with. Talk to them on the phone before you agree to an appointment. I had two sessions with one before I told my prime care physician that I was uneasy with her and all she did was give me another name of some one who works with people more in my age range and that focused more on my whole life. I'm still with her today and it's been fifteen sessions.

Good luck to both of you and both of you please let me know what you decide.

Sincerely,

acutee2

Hey guys thanks so much for the replys..... I'm not sure if I will get help or not! When I think about it I start to wonder if I even need help and than some days I think I do! Is it still an ed if its not every other day, once a week, sometimes not for a month ( the throwing up part)
The worrying about the weight and weighing myself is EVERY DAY THO
I dont no what to do