I am reading books about people who have been in eating disorder rehabs centers and I am looking up tips they had gotten. See there is NO way I could ever afford to go to one at all, I have no money I cannot even afford a shrink. Plus I am still confused over my whole situation as it is. But I am looking into helping myself. However, I am not sure what exactly I would consider myself to be. I don't want to take in tips for people who are anorexic if I am considered bulimic. I never throw up or anything, but the fact that I do have urges to binge and never act upon them...does that make me bulimic? It's so complicated. Some people who are anorexic who I've talked to say it's only a myth that they aren't tempted by food would you agree?. For example, I was think about the holidays recently and remembering how hard it was to resist all the yummy foods around me. The smell, the happiness in the air I wanted to enjoy that so bad but I wouldn't.I still want the food. Cheesecake, breads, sweets candies ah! But I know if I ever ate those things, I would immediately have a breakdown. So I am not sure how to classify myself as of yet. I want to identify with something I think it would make things easier. Any idea on what you think I am leaning more towards ed wise in your non clinical but friendly opinion?