I hate the fact that even after a few years of recovery I can still think about acting on my ED daily :dizzy: . I wish it would just go away and I could be happy with my normal sized body. I figured I'd post this here rather than having the thoughts rattle around my head. Thanks for listening.

Yeah wouldn't it be soooo nice if there was a quick easy fix?? Unfortunately it doesn't work that way....it's a long and usually slow process but it sounds like you've come a long way so hey don't forget to congratulate yourself for how far you've come.....i'm sure someday it will completely be out of your head and be nothing more than a distant memory....at least i hope that's possible for your sake and i'd like to believe there's hope for me too one day
:wave: Take care kay :)

hey, that sucks. but seriously, MAJOR congratulations on getting so far in recovery. are you still in therapy or are you done with it now? maybe talking to somebody might help you take that final leap and become totally free, you know? anyway, that's the only suggestion i really have (i'm not as far along as you in recovery yet), but i think it might help. anyway, just stay tough. you've come so far, i'm sure this will pass with time too.

I'm just not happy. My trigger is being pulled on big time! The more out of control I feel the more control I desire. It sucks. My husband and I should be in therapy together but he won't go. That's pretty much the long and short of it.

I have spent 18 years in the relapse/recover cycle...I wish I knew how to stop it too.