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08-07-2006, 11:26 AM
i know im new here..but im feeling so incredibly guilty. i was in the situation where i had to go out to dinner last nite. we went to a really nice steak house and the people that i went with love to eat. i had been dreading this meal for weeks and almost cancelled. i tried to get out of it so many times, but just couldnt find a way. i ate part of steak, some salad (with dressing! we shared so i felt stupid to ask for it on the side), sauted spinach, wine, and then shared a chocolate dessert (which i think i ate alot of). and now ed is screaming at the top of his lungs at how much weight im going to gain. i dont normally eat this much or this kind of meal..so its making me feel even worse. to top it off, i ate lunch and had a cheese snack before dinner. i added it up and it was waaaay over the calorie limit i set for myself everyday. i even ran in the morning in the hopes to make it better, knowing i was going to eat alot in the day and it still didnt help. i feel so fat and gross. it makes me not want to eat all day and run again. my husband gets mad because he thinks i already run too much (which i dont) and dont eat enough (which i think i do). someone please help me. ed wont get out of my head this monring...all i can see and hear is how fat i am right now. why did i eat so much, why couldnt i control myself! i added it up and the dinner alone was probably almost 1000 calories! why did i do it! im sorry..im just feeling so low and bad about myself right now. thanks for listening..:mad: