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whatishappening

08-10-2006, 12:24 AM

Hi girls. Just needing to vent here. Wow, when dh and i decided to try for a baby in Jan. i was so excited ! Ok, nothing yet and it is Aug. already :rolleyes: I used to think about it all the time and look for changes in my body and stuff like that. I guess i am just tired of being disapointed every time... Anyone else feeling the blues ???:confused:

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haileysheets

08-10-2006, 12:53 AM

I get bummed, but I only let myself stay that way for a few hours. Then, I force myself to move on. I refuse to lose faith. I am a big believer in positive thinking. As cheesy as it sounds, I truly think that the month it happens for me will be the month I allowed myself not to worry...had no stress about it...and just reeeeeelaxed. Up until the last week, I worried myself sick during my 2ww thinking things like, "Is it going to happen?" "What if something is wrong with me?" "What if DH has a low sperm count?" Etc. I worked myself up so much. I've realized that TTC is not worth that. It should be a happy time...not one filled with anxieties and depression. Once I go past my 1-year mark of trying, I feel like I'll have a reason to be concerned...but, as for right now, I'm just going to relax, stay positive, and pray for that BFP. I am sure it will happen for you. Don't give up hope!!!

whatishappening

08-10-2006, 01:10 AM

Thanks Hailey ! That's a great way of thinking. I know next month ( if nothing happens by then) we are going to the dr. to check out sperm count and make sure all my inside stuff is working properly. Best of luck to you too !!:D

Thanks for the:)

Star222

08-10-2006, 12:02 PM

whatishappening...i started TTC Feb. I couldn't be as patient as you or hailey.
I had my ultrasound on CD12 and CD17...and today(CD27) i had my blood drawn. Don't think i've ovulated this cycle even after the clomid. My gynae also ordered semen analysis for DH and a HSG on my CD8 next cycle. Surprising...but according to him he doesn't want to waste time but to run all the tests coz certain tests are best conducted on a specific cycle day.
I was loosing faith too..but all these tests have given me new hopes.
Good luck to you...

Moldovandish

08-10-2006, 02:30 PM

yep, it does get frustrating... we started in March and are still going:eek:
I also just got my HSG done, my blood test and hubby's SA this month.. They all seem to be pretty normal, so I guess we'll keep trying some more:D

haileysheets

08-10-2006, 02:51 PM

For those of you that have been TTC less than a year -- how are you getting your doctors to run these tests for you? My doc said no testing until TTC for a whole year. Just curious. Baby dust! :)

GoldenMom

08-10-2006, 02:53 PM

Sorry you are having a hard time, whatishappening! TTC is a tough road for some of us. <Hugs>

Take care!

GoldenMom

08-10-2006, 02:59 PM

Hailey~Different doctors have different policies. When I went for my annual pap (after 9 mos of TTC) she said we could start testing that day or wait for the full year. I opted to start early.

Also, if you have evidence that you are not ovulating or proof of another problem, they are more apt to start testing earlier. I didn't have proof of any problems, but I did have 4 months of BBT charts to show.

Some insurance companies will not pay for diagnostic testing that is done before the couple has been trying for one year. That is one of the main reasons why some Drs strictly enforce the 1 year criteria.

Moldovandish

08-10-2006, 04:38 PM

My doctor had told me ealier to let her know if my cycles were not consisent... I called her and told her that I had a 26 day cycle one month (with them being 30-35 usually)... so she said that I could either start BBT charting (which I was already doing...DUH!) or we could start some testing... of course I opted for the tests.. My insurance company covered the expenses. I only had to pay the co-pay amount for the HSG.

dragonfly green

08-11-2006, 10:31 AM

I am losing faith; we have been trying for over a year and a half. I am on clomid for the second month in the 2ww and I feel nothing. Same as you I obsessed over every little change in my body. I have watched 4 of my co-workers get pregnant and now 2 of them are on there second pregnancy. My friends have had their first and all my family members have 2 each. I feel so left behind, I feel like I am missing out on my life. I did not meet my husband until later and now I am 36. I want this so badly in a way that I can not explain. I am afraid of looking into adoption because I think that would seem like I am giving up. I want the experience of being pregnant with a healthy happy baby. I know we have more avenues to try IUI, IVF and that helps but the pressure is mounting. I already have a difficult time trying to relax can you imagine the presser to spend $10,000 on IVF? I am sorry I don’t mean to be a big downer or so long winded but I all the people around me with babies don’t understand what I am going through.

Dragonfly

whatishappening

08-11-2006, 11:50 AM

Hi Dragonfly. If it makes you feel any better, my aunt of 40 just had her first baby !! Mariaka hargatay ( in law and order ) just had her first at 42 !! So there is hope ! I guess i am just feeling hopeful today;) I know you have heard this over and over again but try too relax. Thinking about it all the time puts pressure on your body which isn't healthy for conception. I am 35 and am going through some probs. with my hormone levels and am on progesterone to ballance them out. ( which is a pain ) sooooo... just hang in there !! We are all with you and one day it will happen !! Lots of love and dust :angel:

dragonfly green

08-11-2006, 12:08 PM

Thanks Whatishapping just writing it all down helped and knowing somebody understands is so comforting. 40 and 42 that gives me lots of time.
Thanks
Dragonfly

Cupcake3

08-14-2006, 12:08 PM

Just celebrated my 38th B/day this month. We really tried hard time for AF is fast approaching and I think I wil have BFN this month. I feel the cramps already and it is due on the 19th...

Tried everything this month, the robitusson, BD every other day, evening prime rose oil.... what else are we to do but have patience... I really want this badly. I am tired of feeling this void in my life.... especially after having a m/c at 13 weeks. I am still feeling the pain....

Dear God please send me special little healthy person, to love, take good care of and to bring the extra love and happiness into my home..

whatishappening

08-14-2006, 02:50 PM

I am praying for you cupcake. I know how it feels. Just think that everyone here on this board is going through the same thing. I think that god has a plan for everyone and will give you your little precious when the time is right.

Lots of luck and sweet dust :)

dragonfly green

08-15-2006, 02:01 PM

Hi Cupcake I love your prayer it is so beautiful. I say it all the time now and it comforts me.

Baby dust to everybody.

Dragonfly

Zoe-Leigh

08-15-2006, 02:16 PM

blondieblue98

08-15-2006, 02:47 PM

DH and I have been ttc since Dec 05' and have given up...we lost faith but hopefully soon we can start again and get better results...
For us the big issue is that I am 26 and my married friends are all pregnant now with their second or have just had their second child. My DH is a few years younger than me and now even all of his friends are having children. It wasn't so bad when it was just my friends but now it seems like we are the ONLY couple without children and that is what makes us lose faith....

TryN2BMommy

08-15-2006, 02:54 PM

Hi Blondie :wave:

I know how you feel! We have been trying for over 3 years now and nothing. :rolleyes: We are both 27, and we are also the only couple we know w/o children. Please try not to lose faith. I have heard stories about couples trying for much longer than that...6 yrs, 11 yrs, and so on...and their dreams ended up coming true for them. There is ALWAYS hope - in fact, sometimes HOPE is the ONLY thing we have.

May I ask if you have been to a dr yet? We consulted w/ my OBGYN, and she ran a series of tests which gave us a ton of info. We actually learned that he has a low sperm count and I have no working tubes :eek: :eek: . We would have NEVER been able to conceive naturally. But now, we have a plan of action. My tube (only have one) is going to be unblocked, and we will take it from there. It's almost like a fresh start at trying (at least, that's how I try to look at it to stay positive ;) ).

If you haven't seen a dr, I would highly recommend it. Please don't give up hope. Whatever decision you and your DH make, I wish the best for you both ((HUGS)).

Good luck.

Holly~

Cupcake3

08-15-2006, 04:41 PM

Hi Dragonfly Green,

thanks for the reply...

Baby dust to all......and baby kisses to all....

May the Blossoming of summer full fill all our prayers and dreams...

Cupcake3

08-15-2006, 04:43 PM

Hi Dragonfly Green,

thanks for the reply...

Baby dust to all......and baby kisses to all....

May the Blossoming of summer full fill all our prayers and dreams and may we all be blessed with healthy little angels...

blondieblue98

08-15-2006, 11:01 PM

Thanks Holly~We haven't exactly given up total hope and it may be a good thing since I recently was accepted to University-I have 2 years left of college but plan on going all semester and try to get it done sooner~~sooner for us to start bding again :) The only thing that really makes me lose faith is how difficult it's been for us this year trying and by us waiting another couple of years, it makes me wonder if it will be even harder. I have seen a doctor and everything seems fine, the only thing he said is that just because my cycles are 28 days (sometimes 29) doesn't mean that my luteal phase is on day 14-which would be considered "norm". He said I may possibly ovulate later or earlier than thought previously...it's just difficult because I never have cramps or odd feelings around that time. OPK's aren't much help, every time the lines are bright bright pink we get excited and get shot down again. I just need to realize that God chooses when we are ready, not us. Thanks for replying to me....it's nice to know someone is in the same position and there is hope...