every morning i wake up feeling the same way..guilty. why does ed jump into my head first thing in the morning! hes there when i wake up, all day, until i go to bed at night, just making me feel guilty about every little thing i put into my mouth. its all i can think about all day..and im so tired of it! what do normal people think about when they dont have ed thoughts all day?
please tell me if should feel bad about my eating.. yesterday i had
small salad for lunch, no dressing
small salad for dinner, no dressing
glass of wine
2 tbs of hummus, low carb tortilla, some low fat cheese and handful of nuts for "dessert"...
after that, ed was telling me how fat ill be today and how much weight ill gain because of it and i even ran yesteday to make up for it. like ive said before, running and excercise are enjoyable, but used as a way to let me eat..so says ed. can anyone relate to these same thoughts and feelings. now i feel like i shouldnt eat today and all i can think about is excercising tommorow so i can eat again. how messed up is this? im sorry, im just so frustrated right now. thanks for listening.. :mad:

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Ed is a liar!!!! Rationally, you know that is not alot of food to be eating in one day. I know how you feel about the guilt of eating "too much" or "the wrong thing" I had some anorexic tendencies of my own and it got to the point where I only had about 10 things on my O.K. list and most of those were 0 calorie diet drinks. Please be kind to your body and don't starve it or it will have no choice but to rebel. Please take care of yourself and you are in my prayers.

God Bless You:angel: