There are 2 sides of me. For the lack of a better term I have my good side and my dark side. I am a 6’1” 270lb obese make who leads a very sedentary lifestyle. I don’t drink, I don’t smoke but food is my greatest weakness. I love to eat. I can down a pint of Dove or Ben and Jerry’s with no hesitation.
Back in February, weighing in at 318lbs I had a panic attack, several really that landed me in the ER 3 times.

Why? Cause I thought I was having a heart attack. After an EKG, stress treadmill test, dobutamine echo stress test w/echocardiogram, and a 1 week Holter moinitor all came to the following conclusion. To quote my cardiologist “people would pay millions for your heart” but I have hypertension. It’s stage 1 kinda close to stage 2. My cholesterol was actually not too bad either. I walked thru a landmine and lived so far to talk about it.
Why? Cause I am a sedentary lazy individual who doesn’t exercise. My cardiologist even told me I could get my heart rate over 200bpm and I would not have a heart attack and that I could go full blast.

But what do I do? I got on a treadmill for a total of 4 times. That was it. I am for all intents Self Destructive. I am lazy and I expect things to happen with little or no effort on my part.

What I have accomplished was a loss of 50lbs since February but since my anxiety/panic has diminished I am not as scared to eat B&J’s on a regular basis.

I went to Wal-Mart tonight to get a pint of Dove’s new Undeniably Chocolate and before I checked my BP on their machine, it was 152/92. I walked out of the store without anything. No ice cream, nothing.

I made a choice; I am going to commit mental suicide. The self destructive part of me will now die off. I am declaring war on what destroys me. It thrives on not eating for long periods them gorging myself on pizza or other foods and then I wonder why my pulse spikes up to 100-112bpm.

I am close to identifying why I have high blood pressure. I am obese, I eat unhealthily, I don’t exercise, I sit down all day.
I am in the process of formulating a plan of attack, I am too young to be scared of all the horrible pessimistic outcomes.

This is my life and I will take it and make it into a healthy mentally and physically sound one.

I will keep everyone posted as I begin the process and how it impacts my health.

This is my apocalypse, then I have a feel that very soon this will be my renaissance.

It’s late and I need sleep, been up 20 hrs

Wish me luck

It's terrific that you want to change your life and become healthy. Just start out slow. You didn't get this way overnight!:)

You go guy! We're pulling for you. Remember: Baby steps. I highly recommend joining a Weight Watchers group or reading Dr. Atkins' books (He has such a personal, understanding tone). I lost a lot of weight on WW, but after a while I become numb, or immune to diets, and I do better with an all or never mentality. I can't have just one half a cup of ice cream at home. Atkins is an "all or nothing" lifestyle, and for some of us, that is very empowering. The best exercise advice I have for you is from WW: Get 20 minutes of activity per day. I recommend walking, because it is free. If the weather is prohibitive, you can get a cheap, plastic "exercise step" and do steps in front of the TV. Twenty minutes is not as scary for some reason as thirty, and when you get healthier you can aim for more. Of course, the recommended amount is 30 minutes a day, but we are talking baby steps here, remember? Start with 10 minutes twice a day if you need to, and if you mess up on something, just start over the next MINUTE!

The great thing about where you are now is that when you really start, the weight will fly off. It is going to be the best high you've ever had in your life. Prayer helps, too! :angel: