Hey, I'm new, but a long time reader, and FINALLY got an account!
Anyways, I guess I should start by saying that I'm recovering from annorexia, and am finally eating more. I've been up to 1500 lately, but I feel so guilty at that number that I excersize like a fiend to make sure I don't get fat.

Thing is, I know I won't, because even if I were to sit all day long, I'd need 1600 to maintain, yet when I hit that number when I have been out and about all day, I feel uncomfortable. Anyone else?

ALSO, and more important; I'm obsessed with food! My mind is always thinkging of "hmm, what should I make for dinner/lunch etc" and I can't get it out of my head! I go grocery shopping with no money, just to see food, and watch the food network alot, and look at recipes, and I feel so wierd! And I always compare myself with my sister (shes average) and make her dinner (adding extra fat wherever possible) so I can feel better than her, and kinda, ahead of the game, but I hate that feeling. Anyone else do this?

ALSO I feel guilty If I eat a certain amount of cals before a certain set time. If I have more than 850 before dinner, I feel like, I have to go take a walk, yet I still manage to get my cals up to 1550, I just hoard the all before bed, but I hate doing that, and I know I should eat more before dinner so I dont have to eat them all before bed...

But this set time in my head won't let me cause I' feel guilty..

Anone else feel this way? Or am I alone? How long does it take to feel normal? What can I to to stop this?

PHEW! ok, I'm done finally, haha.
THANKS

:p

I'm in exactly the same place. I'm up to a 'healthy' amount...but not for my activity level. So I'm eating 'normally' but still losing. I don't think about food all the time since I got on antidepressants, but I do schedule my whole day around food. It already feels like I am eating so much...I can't imagine eating more. It was so much easier just to restrict! But not good for me I know.

My mind is always thinkging of "hmm, what should I make for dinner/lunch etc" and I can't get it out of my head! I go grocery shopping with no money, just to see food, and watch the food network alot, and look at recipes, and I feel so wierd!

Its not weird. I do these EXACT same things! Im constantly thinking about what to eat later or the next day. I love grocery shopping, even with no money. I like just looking at the food and just dreaming about it. I actually even look forward to grocery shopping every week. I also LOVE the food network. Looking at all the different food, watching people eat and cook. I'm hooked on that channel. Ive also got into cooking myself, I never was really into it until now. Although I rarely eat any of the food I make I usually make it for my family. I even look up recipes on the internet and google images of food. So your not alone

Thank GOD! I'm so glad im not alone here.
We can do this together though; this is a HUGE community!

I think about food constantly. I always want to know what I'll be eating hours in advance (probably so I can plan the right amount of workout to go with it). The problem is, I never act on my food obsession. I'm sure I'm as obsessed with food as overeaters, just that I exercise better control (too much).

Wow, this is great.. other people really feel the same way. I love cooking.. eating, however, is an entirely different thing.