I have so many fears and cried so much that I feel like I might go crazy... My doctor just told me she would like for me to get a biopsy for possible Cervical Cancer...

I went for a normal visit... to my doc... he's been helping me with a severe weight gain I can't seem to stop no matter what I do... I mean like 6 pounds every 6 weeks or so... and I am not hardly eating... I ballooned after a bad fall injured my knee 5 years ago, and cannot come down. Anyway... two visits ago we were chatting and I mentioned my irregular periods... they come like clockwork on a 28 day cycle... but they last 2-3 weeks... full bleeding for 3 days with extremely painful cramping, and then spotty blood for the remaining 2-3 weeks... it's killed any chance at a love life I had...trying to squeeze in a month of sex into 2-4 days...Anyway........ after a pap test... my doc asked me to schedule this biopsy... I don't want to go. I know that probably sounds stupid...but I am going through so much with a breakup I didn't ever expect.. my love, my best friend...my everything...I asked him to leave and divorce his wife, then come back... he divorced her, but isn't coming back... and he would have been the only one I could ever talk to about this...he was the only shoulder I can cry on... he was the only one who could kiss my fears away. So here I sit, terrified, alone... wanting to cancel this visit for the biopsy. I mean, what if it comes back as malignant?

My doc told me that all the signs are there... exteme weight gain, irregular bleeding, exteme pain during menstruation... fevers of unknown origine...Has anyone experienced this? Can anyone offer any words of comfort? I'm so sorry to sound so pathetic... but I have never felt so alone in my life. My parents just lost my brother to suicide... I cannot burden them with the fear of losing there only other child... I have always been the strong one... and I can't tell my exboyfriend... because I don't want him to pity me...or come back to me because of pity....So alone I worry... probably making it worse than it is... feeling as if it doesn't really matter anyway if I do have it...

If anyone can relate...I would love to hear from you...

Feeling scared and totally alone....Beanie

Beanie,
I am so sorry you are going through this. Please, keep your appointment. From all I've read on the web, your symptoms could be many other things. I just had so many years of normal paps, and 3 days after a family friend died of cancer, I got the call from my gyn about my severe dysplasia pap result. I had the biopsy, I just had the LEEP on this past Monday. I haven't gotten the pathology results yet, so I am going crazy thinking they will find something worse. I need those results to carry on normally. I know what you are feeling. Please take it one step at a time. Get through the biopsy. Then see what's next. Post here anytime to talk. You can get through this!
Jen

Thank you Jen... what is Leep? I left my doctor's office not asking any questions ... just kinda wondering what I have done so bad in my life to go through all this now... ya know? That numb feeling... I think it was mentioned with the abnormal pap... but to be honest... all I heard was "biopsy"... does that sound silly or what???

I am such a stong person... but at this moment I feel as weak and pathetic as any person can feel... I appreciate you taking time to reply... It is soooooo good to know that someone knows what this fear is like... I will keep my appointment... Can I ask you this... does the biopsy hurt??? (I know...big baby).... but I have such painful pap smears that it's been over 7 years since my last one (terrible huh?) I just hate the pain so much... I suffered vaginal warts with my very first boyfriend... and almost died from dehydration from a ruptured cyst on my over at 17... and ever since... I have avoided any gyn I can...the pain is more than I can take sometimes...

Sooooo, Jen... what can I expect??? Please be as honest as possible because we both know the doc's love to say "you'll feel a little pressure" when they mean "this is the most painful experience of your life"...:eek:

Thanks again.... and God bless you on your results... I will pray for you!

Beanie

I am pathetic! I will spend all my free time looking at this board and others until I get my results...
Honestly, I find the paps very uncomfortable, almost painful. The biopsy was a hard pinch, but over quickly. But it process takes a while. They put a mild vinegar solution on your cervix, and the abnormal tissue should turn white. Then they look at your cervix with what looks like binoculars to me. It magnifies the cervix for the doctor. Then they can see where to take a sample from.

The worst part for me with paps is the cramping for a few days afterwards. I take advil about 3 times a day for 2 days after. This was my first biopsy. I think it was the ECC that caused most of the cramping, though. It checks the cells further up in the canal, where a pap doesn't reach. I took advil again for 2 days after.

Since the biopsy came back with severely abnormal cells, they wanted to do a LEEP procedure. It's a procedure done to remove the abnormal tissue from your cervix. Then they send the tissue for pathology. Mine was done under local anesthetic, shots into the cervix to numb it. The worst parts are the sound from the machine and having the speculum in for that long.

Hope I didn't scare you. It is a different experience for everyone. Some people really have no issues with these procedures. I did. But I am a whimp. If I had to have a LEEP again, I would ask for an anti-anxiety or muscle relaxer before I went.

I hope I didn't confuse you. Ask me anything. I check the boards here like 10 times a day.

Thank you Jen... I am just the kind of person that needs to know exactly what to expect... My appointment is on the 12th of September... so I have a lot of time on my hands to think the worst... I did have a Uterine Biopsy many years ago, and that was probably the most painful experience of my life. They told me it was going to feel like a little pinch with that... but never prepared me for the solution to dilate(SP?) me 3 cm in order to insert the "tool" they used to clip the sample... I almost passed out from the pain that day... and was ready to kick the doctor in the face...lol... but that result was negative and I think that may have been the last year I got a PAP test as well (over 7 years ago, terrible)... But it has to be done, because, God forbid, there is a problem, the sooner I know the better my chances are for survival...

I am just so thankful I found these boards, because, at 38 years old, I am totally alone in this walk. I have no one I can share my feelings or fears with...As I said in the first post, my parents just lost my only brother to suicide 3 years ago, so I just cannot worry them with this yet. And my boyfriend, my other half, he left me 2 months ago, so I can't tell him either. I have no one who can go with me to this appointment and hold my hand... But I have God, and He will hold my hand. And now I have all of you amazingly strong women to come to and talk to about all of this... It is a blessing!!

One step at a time I guess, huh? I am trying very hard not to think of the "worst case scenario"... But at times, alone in my home, it consumes my thoughts... what if?? what if?? ya know?

I will make it part of my daily routine to check these boards...God Bless everyone here... you are all my role models!!

Luv,
Julie

Thanks, reading your forum made me feel a tad bit comfortable. I have a coloscopy coming up and im scared to death. I have had bad paps for 3 years and they are finally doing something about it... If you dont mind me asking how old are you two?

Hi Holly,

I am 38... I am so grateful to this forum... as a strong woman I feel so alone and like such a baby when it comes to this. I have never thought about any form of cancer, and I usually am so strong mentally when it comes to any issue, but this one has thrown me out of sync.

I know that knowledge is power and if I just keep all my appts. then worst case scenario, I detect it early and nip it in the bud.... I will pray for you with your upcoming colonoscopy...I had "irregular" paps since 1992, and each time it was dismissed... My fear kept me away from the gyn for many years, but reading the stories of strength and perserverance, made me realize, the power is within me... and by doing everything I can to diagnose, and treat early on, will make me powerful...

How old are you?

I'm gald that you decided to keep your appointment Beanie. Putting it off can only make it worse. Im going in for a Cone Biopsy to hopfully get rid of my microinvasive cancer on September 12th too! so we will have to keep eachother informed of how it went.

you are a very strong woman and you will get through this just fine. I had no problem with my biopsy or LEEP for that matter. I didn't feel any pain or discomfort. But everyone is different.

Let us know how it goes :)

I have tears in my eyes right now because of all you beautiful caring women here... Thank you Teal, for cheering me on. Sometimes God removes people from our lives in times like this so we are forced to lean on Him alone. And He put this website up on my search when I first posted...

I will be thinking of you on the 12th... and praying for you and everyone here always. I am starting to feel a little less scared than I have been. My mind is the enemy when it comes to worrying... I have the ability to imagine the most horrible things when left alone with my thoughts.

But I love coming here and to see replies to my Thread puts peace in my heart....

Thank you again... and please, please keep me posted on how everything goes on Tuesday the 12th.

I hope I am as fortunate as you with the pain part... but really, regardless of HOW painful it will be, it HAS to be done. Knowledge is power.

I love you all, and you are all in my prayers...

Julie

The day is approaching soon, Sept. 12th, and the closer I get the more I get worried... I can't sleep, I can't eat.... I know I'm being a baby...but everytime I close my eyes I dream of the worst... I just wish I had someone to come with me, hold my hand... reassure me...

I guess that's why I flock here... because while you all are not here physically, you are spiritually... and you have all experienced this ...so we share that common bond...

can they still do the biopsy if I have my period??? Because of course it started today...and it is a 2 weeker ... or more.... Does anyone know if I am going to have to reschedule??

Thanks in advance...

Jules

I go in for a biopsy on the 11th!! I got one done last year when My paps was abnormal(thankfully it came back okay that time). I think anytime a doctor checks this area, It's going to be uncomfortable. My experience with a biopsy was not plesent, but not horrible. Don't worry because I'm a big wimp too. the most pain I felt was the speculum being there for so long. Mine was under local anth. and I hardly felt the needle. You don't even feel the actual biopsy. The proceedure took about 10-15 minutes for me. It is all just an uncomfortable situation to be in. I am really nervous about mine because I am more terrified about my results. The good thing is that we are all getting ourselves checked before it turns into something we can no longer control. I will pray for everyone.

This website is a godsend. I check it every day as well. Before I found this site, I was SOOOOOoo scared because I am only 24 and going through all these issues. I will let you know how my results turn out. Please let me know how all of yours turn out as well. God bless!:angel:

beaniebabu- The best time to do a biopsy is 2 weeks after your period. The doctor will more than likely reschedule. :)

Thank you Wishing_well ... I just want this over with so bad... the worry is causing the most trauma to me... I can't remember the last time I slept for more than 2 hours at a time... I get up every 30 minutes or so at night, because i can't seem to shut my mind off.. And this last week has been the worst... I want so badly to tell my exboyfriend, because he was always my rock... and I just can't. I don't want him to think I am using this to get him back... uuugggg.. and i was so ready for Tuesday to come and get this over with... Now to wait two weeks.....

Ok here's one more question though... I spot and bleed 3 weeks out of the month...so there is only 1 week between actual periods...I hope they can even do the procedure...goodness. I will call the office on Monday morning to find out. Any you are so right, at least we are being proactive and not running from it... the results are terrifying but not knowing is sure death... I chose life, no matter what the struggle will be. Good luck to you on the 11th, and please let us know how it went..

God bless...

Jules

I am 35 and had a biopsy done just yesterday for the first time it really wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, I'm not going to lie to you and say it didn't hurt but it really wasn't that bad. Make sure you take a few ibuprofens about 45 min before to help. The reason for my biopsy is because I have been bleeding for 3 months non stop. I was bleeding when the biopsy was done I tried to take 6 birthcontrol pills a day to stop the bleeding for it but it didn't work so we went ahead and just did it. I'll know in 2 weeks. Hoping its just hormones or my thyroid meds that need to be adjusted. I do have hypo tyroid and I really think it has something to do with that, and not cancer.

I am glad I got the biopsy done for my own piece of mind.

Thank you for that information... I hope that it's just your thyroid as well..and I also have hypothyroidism... but for as many years as I have been bleeding so irregular, the doctor never even put that into the equation... perhaps my thyroid isn't regulating either...but as you say, for peace of mind, and just the power of knowledge... we need to have this done...

I will be praying for you... please let us know the results when you get them!!

God bless,
jules

Juiles,

How long has it been since you had your thyroid checked? Are you on meds for it? I am taking synthroid and my doctor keeps uping my dose. I just had another blood test done for my levels the day I had my biopsy.

My gyno wants me to see a endocronologist (sp) for my thyroid. Since they specialize in that area. She really thinks it may have something to do with my period being nonstop for 3 months.

We went ahead and went with the biopsy to rule out cancer because my mom had endometrial cancer and she was also bleeding non stop, but she also didn't have her periods for 3 years before she started to bleed. Mine were pretty normal up until about 6 months ago.

Anyway if you have not had your throid levels checked in a while do that. Thyroid really seems to control everthing in our bodies. Last year my legs were swelling so bad that I got blisters on them that started to "leek fluid" my doctor sent me to the ER right away to see if I had a blood clot in my leg since I was having a hard time breathing too, and come to find out my thyroid was off and at that hospital they changed my meds and up'ed the dose and a week later my swelling was gone and I could breath again. Go figure. I always thought that thyroid was no bid deal it just was making me heaver, but it is a big deal its like the control center of our bodies.

Anyway I'll post me results when I get them.

Well, I have always had it checked regularly, and I am on meds for it... I just insisted that my doctor switch me from the synthroid to ARMOUR thyroid... this is a natural thyroid hormone from Pig Thyroid... it contains both hormones that the thyroid produces, unlike synthroid that only produces 1 hormone . The doc didn't want to at first , but he did ...it's harder to find the right dosage because it's natural... I am right now on 120mg of it, but I think we need to go to 240... At first, the 120 was beginning to make a difference... I wasn't falling asleep all the time, or more importantly --- not falling asleep at the wheel of my car. I began to come out of my depression some... but my periods never changed... they last 2.5 - 3 weeks out of a month.... I don't bleed overly hard the entire time, but it doesn't quit either...

And I also get horrible swelling in my lower legs... to the point where they hurt to touch... I think when I go for this procedure I will ask them about an endocrinologist too... I want to cover all bases with this thing...

Thanks!!! I really appreciate all this info...it helps a lot

Jules

Well I just got back from the doctors where they did my Colpo.biopsy. It was actually not as bad as the last time. The only time I felt pain was when they were preforming the actual biopsy. (and even that was not bad) It is only a small pinch-litterally! The doctor says that I get my results withing 4-5 days. So maybe Friday...Beaniebabu- You will be just fine. The entire proceedure takes about 15 minutes. It's over very quickly. It's been about 2 hours since the proceedure and I am experiencing NO PAIN, NO CRAMPING, NOTHING!!! the only thing you will have light bleeding and discharge from the monsol solution they put to stop the bleeding. Have you asked your doctor why you bleed so much? I know all women are made differently, but that just seems abit much to me. I have the opposite problem. I can't seem to get a period. Make sure you right all your questions down before going over there because I didn't do that and when I got to the doctor's, I forgot most of my questions. It also helps to take a friend with you. Good luck on your colpo tomorrow. Please let me know how it went and DON'T WORRY! everything will be just fine. :bouncing:

Well, it's done... and maybe I'm just a baby, but I thought the biopsy was painful... My bleeding was minimal so they didn't cancel the procedure, which I was very glad about... and now I have to wait a week to know the results... Actually the procedure made me feel like I wanted to throw-up... has anyone else felt that way??? Maybe it was just my nerves....

I'm trying to be strong, and not think the worst all the time, but I don't think I've ever been so scared in my life... I am sooooo grateful to all of you beautiful women here who can understand and share your own walk with me... I'm trying to act all normal in front of family and co-workers... I simply can't tell anyone right now...not until at least the results of the biopsy come in. Then maybe, but I just don't know.

Well, I am praying for everyone, and please, anyone who had a positive biopsy... what's the next step? Is it LEEP? I should have asked the doctor but I swear when I see her I lose all my questions... I just sit there frozen.

God bless and have a wonderful day everyone

Jules

I think it depends on you and your doctor what the next step will be. After my colpo/bio, which revealed extensive carcinoma, I had a cold-knife cone biopsy instead of a LEEP. I think my Dr. was more confident with a cone procedure because of the extent from my colpo. (My results came back micr-invasive and then clear, with clear margins)I found that the procedure was not to bad. My nerves pre-op were worse than the actually procedure. Try to relax and go do something that makes you happy to hepl take your mind off of it a bit. Good luck and take care:)

We are both nervous about the procedure and results. I am sooooooooo scared to find out what my results are. I am afraid that they will end up removing most of my cervix and I won't be able to have children. I asked my doctor about getting pregnant. He told me that I can get pregnant right away. He acted like it was not a big deal what I had. Not sure if I should go ahead and start or just wait until the results? BeanieBabu- I also felt Naucious through the entire thing. I think it was mainly my nerves, but I also think it had alot to do with me thinking about them cutting pieces of my insides. I am glad that I am not going through this alone. I appreciate your story and it helps me ease my mind. The first time I had my biopsy, IT HURT! This time, (maybe because I already knew what was going to happen) it was okay. I have never had a LEEP nor a Cone. I AM TERRIFIED JUST THINKING ABOUT THOSE TWO. I get my results TOMORROW! OMG...never did I imagine going through so much at such a young age. I will keep everyone posted on my results. Hopefully they will turn out okay. I am wishing and praying for your results to come out normal Beaniebabu. God bless! :angel:

Actually the procedure made me feel like I wanted to throw-up...

I'm trying to act all normal in front of family and co-workers... I simply can't tell anyone right now...not until at least the results of the biopsy come in. Then maybe, but I just don't know.

I should have asked the doctor but I swear when I see her I lose all my questions... I just sit there frozen.

The "throw-up" feeling is normal. I'm not sure why it happens, but I've experienced it a few times during procedures. I know my Doctor always asks if I've eaten, if I haven't he gives me candy to suck on. I've noticed that I don't get that feeling when I had a big meal prior to the procedure.

Keep being strong, you're strong enough to get through this! Confide in who you trust. Thats what I do, my parents, boyfriend, and boss are the only ones that know what is going on with me. That's why these boards are great. No one on here judges.

When this first happened to me I started writing down any question I thought of and brought the paper to my appointment. That way I didn't forget to ask anything.

Goodluck - praying for a clear result for you!

Beaniebab and wishing well I know how your both feeling the waiting is horrible. Its been a week now since my endo biopsy and still no word. I'm praying for us all that we get good results.

Like I said I had my endo biopsy done a week ago and ever since then I have been in so much pain, the first few days were not so bad but by the 3rd day I was bleeding even heavier, clotting every half hour. And the pain in my lower abdomen is like I've been kicked and someone is twisting my insides and cramps hurt so much that I had to get pain pills and anti inflamitory (sp). They are the only things that get me through the day once the pills start to wear off I know it because the pain is so bad. I'm wondering if anyone else is having that kind of pain? Is it from where she took the sample that its making it hurt so much. I just don't know how much more of this I can take. :(

My friend said that my uterus is probably enflamed because of all the bleeding and clotting she maybe right. Who knows anymore. I just want to wake up and have it all better.

Did you tell your doctor the symtoms you've been having? It just doesn't sound normal to me. I've never had that procedure done, so I am not familure with the healing process, but so much pain should not be normal. When are you supposed to get your results? I am supposed to get my results today, but am too scared to call the doctor. I don't know whether to wait until the weekend is over and call on monday, or just get the news today. :dizzy: . I DON'T WANT TO GO THROUGH MORE PROCEDURES!!! :( :( :( :(

Yeah I called and her assistant ordered me naproxin to help with the pain.

They also got my results in but have not had a chance to look at them due to a fire in the office so she said she will get to them next week. Arrh.......Just my luck the building catches fire. :mad:

Things like that always happen when we are nervous and anxious to get results. I have not heard from my doctor either. I am crossing my fingers and praying that both of our resuts come back normal. Quick question. what procedure did you have done? what was the reason why they preformed that procedure?

I had a endometrial biopsy done because I have been bleeding for the past 3 months nonstop. But now since she did the biopsy I am bleeding very very heavy and clotting with lots of pain in my lower abdomen. I am taking pain meds just to help with pain and I don't like to do that. I am only 34 so I know its not menopause already. So here I am sitting at home afraid to leave because I am bleeding so bad waiting for my results which they don't have yet because of a fire at the doctors building. I'm just going to have to try to make it until next week and hope this pain and bleeding lets up. And everything comes out fine for us.

I am in a lot of pain today I have to admit... It feels like the worst ovulation I've ever had, only not really where my pain usually comes from when I ovulate.... the bleeding was scaring me a little until I logged on and started reading what you all wrote... Thank you all so much for sharing this experience with me!!!

I will be praying for all of us... what I really want to do is drown in a big glass of Rum and diet coke..lol.. but when I am upset that's the worst thing to do... I'll be crying hysterically, and might call my exboyfriend or something... I guess I'll just focus on my 3 kitties...who, by the way, must know I am very upset, because they are clinging to me every second of the day...

Please let us know when your results come back as I will also!!

Have a good night everyone!

Jules

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I worry about your post where you say you are having so much bleeding and pain since your endometrial biopsy. Have you called a doctor about this? This does not sound normal at all ...

are you soaking a pad in an hour?
are you feverish?

I still say call the doc or go to ER and get this looked at...

Karen

(I just read your post on the previous page about talking to the nurse prac and getting naproxen prescribed. If you call back, ask to speak to the doctor...and be sure to mention the amount of bleeding you are having. Any bleeding that is that heavy should be looked at)

Karen, yes I was soaking a pad every hour along with big clots every half hour or so. I did call the doctor and she just had the nurse give me naproxen for inflamation. She did say if it continues she would have to do a D&C. I have been taking Davacet and Naproxen, because the pain was so bad. Now knock on wood. The bleeding today is much less and the pain is better, now I still am taking pain meds so I don't know if the pain just just being masked by the meds, but the bleeding and clotting is much better for now. So hopefully its a step in the right direction. Last week my doctor also up'ed my thyroid meds so I am wondering if maybe that is helping a little with the the bleeding. I still really think all this is caused by my hypothyroid. But just for my own peace of mind I am glad we did the biopsy and I am hoping and praying it all comes out ok. For me and the rest of us who are dealing with this crap. :angel:

Well my results came back as CIN1- the doctor wants to wait 6 months to do a re-pap. I stared another thread to get advice. From what I have read in the responses of the other thread, they say it is normal for my doctor to wait 6 months. I gues it's just a waiting game for me now. I have actually decided to change my lifestyle so i could do everything possible to aid my body in fighting my HPV and CIN1.

1- No more smoking!
2- Taking prenatal vitamins (doctor recommended)
3- Starting to eat healthy
4- To start dropping 10 pounds
5- Excersising.
6- Maybe get pregnant? :)

Hopefully with all these combination of things, I would have done everything in my power to keep my body as healthy as possible. So even though my test results were not NORMAL, I am not afraid anymore. I know that I am taking care of whatever it is I have before it progresses into something more uncontrollable. Let me know when your test results come in (and beaniebabu). I am sure everything will be just fine. Praying for you both! :angel:

I was just diagnosed with HPV and have to go in for a colobiopsy on Monday. I am a wreck because I have been having abnormal bleeding after intercourse (though my doc said it could be from a palyp), odd discharge, and sometimes pain after intercourse. Can anyone offer advice? I cannot get my mind off this and have never felt so scared in my life.

I know it is scary going through female problems- The good thing is that you are taking care of whatever you have. Talk to your doctor. Bleeding after intercourse could mean many different things, so try not to freak out. Also, If you are not satisfied with the response from your doctor, get a second opinion. You have to be pr-active about your health. I know many friends that have abnormal bleeding and they are healthy. Some have cysts. I would definatly talk with your doctor about a CT scan or Ultersound- just to rule out ovarian cysts or (PCOS). Since you have HPV- your abnormal paps more than likely is a result from cervical cell changes caused by HPV. I just had a biopsy last week. Not that big of a deal though. When you go in, make sure you take ib-profin 30 min. before the procedure. It will help with the minor cramping. Hope this information helps and keep us posted! :angel:

Thank you so much for your feedback. I know we are all going through these type of issues, and it is great to have a forum to discuss our fears.

Thanks again

Hey all, I just got back from my doctors office and my results for my endometrial biopsy was fine, no cancer. Thanks god. Now I have to have an ultrasound done again on Monday to see if my Cyst on my ovary is any different. I'm an glad I got this done and now at least I know this part of my tests are fine. I'll keep you posted.

Hope all you other girls are doing ok, I'll keep praying for us all. :angel:

That is great news!!! I'm so happy that everyone this came back fine...:blob_fire :blob_fire :blob_fire :blob_fire

That is soooooo awesome!!! I actually got a call from the doc's office Friday when I got home from work (told them to call my job.. :mad: ) so I have to call in the morning... but they said something about coming in to discuss the results... that's bad right???????????????? :confused: :confused:

I haven't slept all weekend... but I should have come on the computer and I didn't.... I have to just keep praying and know that god is working here.... no matter what the results...

again... to everyone on here... thank you so much for joining in and sharing your experiences.... it helps more than anything!!!

keep your fingers crossed... I'll let you all know what happens...

Jules

Hey beanie just because your doctor called and said they want you to come in and discuss the results does not mean its bad at all, some doctors just perfer you to come in the office, mine would not tell me over the phone I had to go in and my results were fine.

I'm praying for ya. :angel:

Thank you so much for that reply!! I am going tomorrow morning to find out. I just have to write down my questions because lately, everytime I go into their office, every question I have seems to disappear....

Thank you for your prayers... ya know, yesterday, in a weak moment, I almost told my exboyfriend about this. He used to be my strength, my rock, but I can't tell him this. It's been so painful sometimes. I find myself calling his cell late at night and just hanging up...I don't want him to feel sorry for me, or want to come back because of this stuff... That's why I am soooooo grateful to all you you beautiful women here, who know the fear, pain, loneliness of all this...

God bless each of us, in our individual struggles.... I'll let you all know what happens tomorrow... (fingers crossed)

Jules

hi,

I had a leep procedure last week. i still feel a pressure in my cervix, almost like having to pee. anyone else feeling this pressure?

also, my doctor said i have moderate to severe dysplagia with clear margins. can anyone break this down further? is this microinvasive cancer?

my doctor was great though and i didn't need any pain relievers. i was totally knocked out with general anethesia so i felt nothing but the iv needle.

if anyone has any questions, i'm more than willing to help or comfort.

is anyone out there thinking that something they did sexually caused this to happen? i surely am.... i feel upset that women have to pay for things in this manner.

i am grateful of the comfort and support from my partner and social circle.

i hope you are doing ok too.

take care
manda:)

From everything I have read, mild,moderate, and severe displaysia are still in the pre-cancer stages. You do not have cancer. There are alot of procedures that can remove these cells before they turn into cancer. Mild displaysia sometimes go away on it's own. Do you have CINI, CINII, or CINIII? I have CINI and my doctor wants to wait 6 months to see if the cells return to normal on their own.

Oh and one more thing I forgot to mention- Displaysia is caused by an STD called HPV. It is sexually transmitted and there are 100's of different strains of this virus, but only very few are high risk. (which you have) Most do not even cause symtoms. When I found out I had HPV, I was SHOCKED. I never had a symtom and still don't. I have always been the one to take care of myself, so I was very surprised that I had an STD. It is surprising how common it is because before I was diognosed with this, I didn't even know it existed. I now tell every female I know. It is difficult to stop the spreading because there is no known way to properly diognose a man. The public needs to become more educated- especially young women. Luckily there is a new vaccine that young women can get to prevent them from getting the high risk strains of HPV. It may be too late for me to get the vaccine, but my two young nieces can. It won't help you if you have already been infected. Hope this information helps. :)

Thanks for the information. I actually have had some complications from the surgery this past week. I have dev. a urinary tract infection (at least the symptom are of that). I am starting a sulfa drug tomorrow, but I have been on Cipro for 5 days and still urgency to urinate. I wonder if they used a catheder to stop me from urinating during the surgery for Leep? Makes me mad. I tried calling the doctor today but he isn't accepting calls. I had to call 2 other doctors. I'm just praying this isn't a kidney infection. It would be hard to believe that I'm still have pressure/pain from the cervical surgery over a week+ ago. Yah, it's certainly not fair that women get a lot of illnesses for no good reason. Thankfully, I have a supportive boyfriend. We went looking at rings this week!!! :D How are you doing with your situation?

Manda

I have the same kind of luck... I called my doctor today to change antibiotics or change drugs and he was out. He was not accepting calls and the doctor who was on call...was at the football game. When he called me back I couldn't hear him...only thing I heard was "Go to the emergency room". So, then I just called my family doctor...

He prescribed me a sulfa drug for my UTI which I dev. about 3-4 days after my Leep procedure. I am someone, btw that takes very good care of myself. Monogamous, clean, non-smoker, healthy eater and I exercise....(when not having procedures done)

Goodluck with everything...I'm praying for ya. :jester:

Manda

Has anyone heard from beaniebabu?

doesnt look like she has posted for a while, i wonder how her results went. I hop everying is ok :angel: