I have my first pap smear since my LEEP (early May) this Friday. I'm worried since I didn't have clear margins. I'm trying not to let this bother me but I can't help it. The waiting part of this whole thing is what is so excruciating. I'm trying to stay positive. I'm just hoping I don't need more surgery. Even worse, cancer scares me along with losing my fertility. I don't have any children yet and I desparately want them. I have no problems adopting but it doesn't make me feel much better right now knowing that I can do that.

I will let you know how things go. It's good to know that there are others out there going through the same thing. I am so sick of bad news from the doctor. It sure would be nice to have some good news! :angel:

I totally sympathize. I had my LEEP at the same time you did and my first rePap is coming up and I didn't have clear margins either. I just have this feeling I'm going to need more surgery.

wishing you luck. I hope we both end up clear.

Timber, you are in my prayers. Thank you for your kind reply. Here's to hoping for good news for the both of us. We will be okay! Take care and God bless.

My repap is coming up as well. I go Monday, should have been last month but I had to reschedule. My results came back with clear margins but my cervical canal came back inconclusive, my doc didn't sound very positive. I will keep you both in my prayers.

Curls, you are in my prayers too. Let's hope for the best for the three of us. We are in this together....it's good to not feel so alone.

I'll keep all of you ladies in my prayers, too!

I agree- the waiting is really tough. I find myself anxious and eager and ready to figure out what the next step will be, depending on the results of my next procedure.

I had a cold-knife cone back in May; my margins were clear, but just BARELY. They found CIS and AIS (adenocarcinoma in situ). It might be all out, but the surprise AIS they found makes my situation a little trickier. I have my first follow-up procedure in 2 weeks with great oncologist I just found. Please pray that my ecc comes back with no signs of more AIS!!

Jenebeka, I know- the whole children thing has been so scary for me too! My fear of not being able to have children seems to far outweigh my fear of the cancer(?)...it's the only aspect I find myself focusing on. I know it's hard to keep your head from spinning with thoughts of "what if," but I truly believe it's important to stay positive and have faith.

We're all going to be okay, ladies!! I'm sending a ton of positive thoughts and prayers your way!:angel:

Hi Ktbee! I will be keeping you in my prayers too. We will all be fine, I know it. It just might take a while. I have to admit, losing my opportunity to have a baby has scared me more than anything too. I hate this waiting game but it is going to be a part of my life from now on. Even when I get to that point someday where I have normal paps, I will still worry every time I go to the doctor.

I hate feeling this way. I had felt more like myself in recent weeks. Now, it's all on my mind again everyday. I can't let this get to me! I have to fight it!!!!

Any suggestions on how to keep this off my mind while I wait for results? I know I shouldn't be "borrowing worry" but I am scared to death of the results of my pap smear.

I wish I had a magical idea to give you to make this worry go away, but all I can tell you is try to stay busy. Keep your mind occupied with something else. Your friends, family, household chores. Whatever you can. I normally clean to keep my mind off of things, not the funnest of choices but it works for me.

Good Luck!