hello everyone..

Just a few minutes to tell my story because i am really desperate for hope or answers....

I am a 20 year old female, who has suffered with undiagnosed constant imbalance feelings ( been tested for all ear things... and no answers) and it started about 4 years ago...

Then two years ago i started questioning my existance, life in general...getting panic attacks everywhere...i think its Depersonalization im not sure....

Now i feel like crying everyday, every second...i can´´t be alone if its outside of my house because i get panic attacks and i just want to die coz i got so scared questioning myself and everything.... I have to start university in a few days and i cant get there by myself... and its too far its embarrasing to have someone come with me...

i tried a psychologist last year but he gave me some medication that made me have no feelings whatsoever....

Any success stories for people like me??
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR HELP

Your life's not over.

I would say, FIGHT IT. Thats all you can do. It sucks, but life's a battle sometimes, we gotta fight ourselves sometimes.

Sometimes we wanna give up, sometimes we want to smoke that whole pack of cigarettes or get loopy and promiscuous, sometimes we want to drive at 160 off a cliff, or go 50000 into debt or tell our Dad off or whatever, but we gotta fight those impulses. Same with depression, anxiety, whatever. We gotta fight ourselves, become MASTERS of ourselves. And its a lifelong process. I pity those who just let themselves go and never have something like THIS to make you a stronger person.

So you feel like crap? Well, we all do at one time or another, but you gotta focus on the future and on good and on happy.

You'll be a stronger, better you...I promise.;)

THank you very much!!! it was very sweet to reply and to try to give me strenght this way....
I agree that its not a permanent thing although everytime it relapses i feel like im never going to get rid of it... the thing is, yes i think about my little sister when i feel this way..and its the only thing i think that has helped me through because my parents hate each other and are going through divorce and i dont get along with my mom so really my parents are no motivation to me....but my sister is going away to college also so im stuck here alone and im scared its giong to be worse...
i just want to feel normal again, i want to be happy and look forward to tomorrow...all i do is sleep and stay in.....
how would u push yourself to go to school or to get up every morning??
thanks again.

how would u push yourself to go to school or to get up every morning??

It is tough some days, but know that things ALWAYS get better. The strange thing is that my life has had some extremely low lows, and some extremely high highs (strange way of saying it, I guess).

No matter what happens to me, it always comes out better.

I am one of the unluckiest people in the world. But you know what, I always know that things will get better.

You are in Collegs (I assume). You should be having the best time of your life. Enjoy college and have fun.

What groups/clubs or events do you go to on a regular basis?

Do you excercise? You should do something physical. Have you ever thought of taking martial arts?

You should try to find a school to learn martial arts. You will be surprised at what it will do for you. Make you feel better, look better, and get you in shape overall. You will probably make some pretty good friends as well.

Hi dog, thank u in advance for your wonderful reply, i see from all your responses that you have all felt very low at some point or other and have managed to regain strenght and hope from a certain activity, thought etc...
I wish i was as strong as all of you, i used to be, sooo confident in myself and everybody would count on me for partying and for school things and for sports and other activities, but now i feel that my close friends sometimes have to drag me to do things or they have to constantly hear me whine about things...
The reason i cant do sports anymore is because of my terrible vertigo, it won´t even let me go for walks, i just constantly feel like im going to sink down....I have done tae-kwando in the past, it is a great release of adrenaline but my vertigo just keeps me from doing these things
I
have thought about everything and maybe if i took things little by little, step by step i could eventually ( or we could all eventually) get through our depresssions....
what would your first step be to curing a depression?? pshycologist? or maybe go the distances to try to solve my vertigo???...what did you guys do first????
thank you so much for the support....

I have never had Vertigo, but I seem to recall someone telling me that they took Dramamine for the dizziness from the Vertigo (I am not sure about that though).

Can you buy some weights and work out in your dorm room or apartment?

What about a hobby you can do at home? Find something that you enjoy (mine is video games), that you can play or do by yourself when you need to "get away".

Good luck to you, it will get better, it just takes some time.

Hi sweetie,

Things sound very tough with your parents divorce and all, and your sister leaving and you are starting college, it's a big time in your life and probably a few tough years, and as much as we can fight things we also have to be gentle with ourselves too and allow some downtime. sometimes we go through so much that our body and emotions just let us down. Please acknowledge that there have been some hard times, so don't be hard on yourself, you WILL feel better again! If you have anyone to talk to, that would be great for you too, a good friend always helps.