hi, how is everyone? good i hope. well i started taking welbutrin last thursday, not really doing any better yet. i was just curious if anyone else on here is on it, and about how long it took before you felt a difference. the first 4 days i had to take 1 pill a day, and monday started me at 2 pills a day, 100 mg each. i am in anger management, but here lately can't find it in me to make it to the classes. so far the classes i have attended have focussed on drugs and alcohol, 2 things which i do not have problems with. i DO NOT use drugs, and only drink like twice a year. i need something that focusses more on my anger problems, but not sure how to go about finding something for that. i am depressed, i guess.... i mean i don't cry all the time, but i have other symptoms, i have been diagnosed as depressed, my family has alot of bi-polars in it, and a few schitzophrenics (not sure if thats how its spelled or not, doesn't look right for some reason), theres alot of mental illness in my family. i have alot of different issues going on in my life, and sometimes i feel like i have too much to carry.... i've started feeling like i'm losing myself, but i'm really not sure what started it, or how to fix it. i hold alot of anger, it seems i stay mad more than i'm happy. my moods change in an instant.... noone, including myself, knows when my attitudes are about to strike, they just hit and take over. i'm really hoping through councelling and meds i can work through this, but the only thing that bothers me is when i'm asked what my problem is. i can't answer that because i really don't know what it is. anyway, thanks for taking the time to listen, and yall take care. God bless!

Hi and welcome!! I have found that seroquel manages my anger brought on by too much mania, I get real productive then I crash, either into depression or rage. Zoloft was the culprit, it is great for depression(which they thought I had) but I was an undiagnosed bi polar 1 rapid cycling, so Zoloft sent me into this GREAT mood then the next thing ya knew, I was throwing chairs and hating everyone. Now I live in depakote,seroquel and klonopin land... http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif Hope your meds kick in soon, sometimes it takes like a month.

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If you are Bipolar you could have a negative reaction from the Wellbutrin. Frequently Bipolar people cannot take antidepessants. My daughter tried both Prozac and Wellbutrin before being diagnosed Bipolar ( they thought she was just depressed). The Prozac did nothing, she still felt awful, the Wellbutrin made her completely flip out on the fourth day of taking it. She was shakey, very agitated, screamed at everything, and ended up running out the front door with no shoes on. I don't want to scare you,but if you feel that there is a possiblity of being Bipolar you might want to research it further. I would be very observant of your mood and call your doctor if you or a family member notice you are developing extreme agitation or worse depression. If you are not Bipolar, the Wellbutrin should start working in 4-6 weeks. Good luck with your recovery from depression.

hi everyone. having a bad day.... real bad. been stewing since about 2 o'clock this afternoon, exploded at about 5:30, and still stewing now. maybe its just me, but here is "alittle" of my problem today. actually, it started about 3 years ago, but came out today. i have been with my "boyfriend" for 4 years now.... 4 whole years. granted we have had our ups and downs, but somwhow we've managed to get through them. our first 3 years was on and off, as soon as we'd argue, he was out the door, and unless i went begging him home, he wouldn't have nothing to do with me (even 80 percent of the time i did beg him back, he'd give me hell for weeks until he felt i had grovelled enough). anyway, last year (january 2002) was the last time we broke up, he left me over something he did, and 3 days later started messing with another girl, while still telling me how much he loved me, swore to God he wasn't messing with anyone, and didn't want to, etc. we were broke up a total of 8 days, the day we got back together the girl he was messing with confronted me with the "news". when he got back, we both confronted him, he was cornered.... he was caught. needless to say, we truely broke up that day, i really hated him, i was so hurt. it did turn out they never actually had "sex" but they kissed, hugged, held eachother, and he did come on to her sexually. anyway, after a month, i decided we'd been together 3 years, maybe i should drop it and try to work things out. ok, well since then, he doesn't leave me anymore, but i also cannot let this go. its constantly on my mind. this girl he messed with, isn't someone who just "went away" either, its someone i see quite often.... a constant reminder. deep down i still resent him for hurting me like he did, and sometimes i don't know if i'll ever be able to just let it go. anyway, the other problem i'm having is, i have waited for 3 years for him to "propose", every year on our anniversary i get all worked up thinking "this will be the year" only to be disappointed and heartbroken by the end of the night. this anniversary i really thought he was going to do it, every time he got paid money was missing, he was always leaving, even told me one time he couldn't tell me where he was going, that i'd find out later. i really thought that was the day, so i waited. the whole day went by, and nothing.... he woke up that morning, gave me a hug and kiss and said "happy anniversary baby", no card, nothing. that was it. i was heart broken, and now i'm getting very resentful. i'm good enough to live with for 4 years, but not good enough to make his wife? i have even thrown hints a 2 year old would pick up on, but nothing. i now find out all the missing money wasn't a present for me (of course) but it went to his lotto habit. scratch offs.... i think he's addicted to them. he left today to go to 2 friends house, told me he wouldn't be gone long, was gone 4 1/2 or 5 hours, wasn't at his friends, and says he was playing the scratch offs for 4 hours. i am furious. we are so behind on bills its not funny, and to waste over 100 dollars on scratch offs.............grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! i don't know, i am just frustrated. i told him i wanted him to leave, but he refused, and i have 2 kids, no money and no where to go, so i'm here too. at least he has his moms house, but legally i can't make him leave, his names on the lease too. with this, and other unmentioned things, i am just full of anger. so much crap.... and i know alot of its my fault because i let it happen, but i didn't know exactly what it was, and then when i find out he swears it'll change, and yes, i'm stupid because i believe him. now i'm to the point where i truely think i just want to be single. i'm tired of all the drama, it gets old. and it really upsets me too that i've never been asked to marry him. all the money he's wasted on lotto, he could have at least bought me a 5 dollar ring and proposed, ya know. i'm gettin too old for this, and besides all our other problems, staying in a relationship thats not going anywhere is getting pretty old too. anyway, sorry i rambled so much, i'm just so aggrivated. hope yall are having a better day. take care and talk to ya later. God bless!