ive bin here a while sorta noseying.i just seem to fit alot of symptoms, u know that feeling wen u read up and they just hit ur characteristics bang on the head-u just know that its describing u in an area.

well ive always bin very very shy,timid and considered a bit weird. i seem to switch off wen i meet new people, i get very nervous and simply cannot string the words togther-i just dont understand in a new situation-but im fine with people i do no, i do have my crazy mood swings tho. ive always bin a bit slow in skool-not natuallry smart-in fact i was looking into ADD. i was always quiet in class and afraid u cud say-but at home i was a devil child, major tantrums and still at 18 i have so pretty spectacular rages that just dont seem logical and i can see it-but wen im like this i dont care.

one thing that does seem to fit is my lack to become intamate. i feel nothing whasoever for the oppsoite sex. im not gay-i just feel empty. i understand that i shud but im just uninterested. i try to be cos i know i shud but its hard. ive never had a boyfriend cos i cant interact with them, i know i cant and therefore am afraid to try.

also, ive read this is a common problem-i cannot say I Love You-not even to my parents. i do love them beyond beleif-i wud die for them. but i cant say it. i feel stupid, i feel it but cant identify with the words really, i feel highly embarressed, stupid and really false. i feel sorta slow and stunted alot like im saying things i dont undrestand.

other things ive also had obbsessions with things, people and fantasy worlds and relationships, ive had funny minor little compulsions and twitches that HAVE to be done. im very sensitve and spend alot of the day in my own little daydreaming world. wot do u guys think-wot does this sound like. my lack of social skills,obbsessions and daydreaming and sudden outburst and anger-what is this-also ive hidden depression, self harm and eating probs along with sexual abuse that happened as a child for a while. plz help me xox

Wow, you really have a lot going on. I think that you do show some signs of an autism spectrum disorder, but there are other things that could be causing these things. I hope that you will seek some advice from a professional. It sounds like you had a tough childhood. That can cause for a really tough time trusting others and loving your self. I'm concerned about your self injurious behaviors and depression. I'm glad you shared with us though, I hope we can help you in some way. Have you ever thought about seeing a psychologist? Maybe talking to someone will help you sort out your feelings. Please don't get me wrong, we are always happy to listen here, and I think you will find this board supportive.

I was always one of those people who tried to self diagnose. In fact, I still do. But the truth is, that the professionals know a whole lot more than I do, and I'm glad I finally had my kids evaluated. With such a complex history, I think it would be hard to say for sure whether you are on the spectrum. You have been through more than any person should ever have to go through, and I hope that you can find someone to help you through. Good luck to you.

-Steph