alright. im a female and 20 yrs old going to be 21 this january. and i cant figure anything in my life out. after hs i was going to go to this college my grandparents wanted me to go to but i changed my mind and wanted a semester off to do what i wanted and to figure out where i wanted to go to school. so i did that and they freaked out. they really did. they yelled at me.. screamed.. it was awful. looking back on it.. it was a little ridiculous and overbearing.. so i signed up at another school i got accepted to (spring 2005) and went and loved it and did well. so now i have to register again but i applied to so many schools to transfer out to.. but i dont know what i want. i cant explain how i feel. things just suck in my life. its too late to apply for a dorm... and i dont wanna live @ home bcuz well lets face it its time to get the hell out of here.. my grandparents are so controlling and bother me all the time .. they always wanna know what im doing with school and it upsets me ... i dont wanna go on and on about them but they suck lol.. anyways idk what to do.. im not looking foward to going back to school its just boring i wish i could go to a school far away and get away from everything.. everything just feels so blah to me lately. idk if im depressed or on the verge of it but i get so stressed out about everything and i dont kno what to do. :mad: i guess i HAVE to register i wanted to get an apartment but idk i know i should be able to do whatever i wanna do at this age but my grandparents control everything that goes on with me if i got an apartment they would problly go through the rough and scream at me.. i cant stand being screamed at over every dumb thing that goes on. am i being immature or overreacting? one night i was at my grandparents house for dinner and my grandfather was asking me about school and said something that upset me so i told him i should go home and not stay for dinner if all we were going to do is fight over everything. so what happens? i go outside for one minute to call a friend and i hear dishes being thrown and most likely broken.. i hate everything i dont understand why at this age i have to be treated like a 14 yrd old child who needs to be told what to do all the time. i wish i could leave and get away from all of this but it doesnt seem to be working right now. i could transfer this spring and live away and finish school.. i guess i just feel like im being held back and i wish i could leave all of this.. and move on to something else..