hi everyone i have never done anything like this before kinda interesting. I have been suffering most of my life and have finally been diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder and he they have also brought up the possibillty of borderline personality and i dont really know much about that.

I have been on medication for about 6 months and it had been going well just minor lapses i guess. but the other night i just completly lost it wanted to cut myself bad and hated myself so much and wanted to die. just reallyt did not think i would be back there again. it is a mager setback in confidence.
anyway will rdead some more and hopefully back from someone
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hello nice to hear from someone.
tired is crap i was tired for about six months constantly but struggled to sleep at night at the same time. I really feel like I am over that at the moment
some of my medication has changed but feel positive about it which is nice.
I really hope you can pull yourself out of your hole, having a good job or some hobby helps. I just started drawing and am completly **** but have a relaxed honest thing going on with myself that i understand that everything takes time and i will get better at drawing and maybe the beautiful faces i see will one day be something close to that and not the alien like, out of proportion oddity they are now. well let me know how your going. and try and laugh at silly things it really helps.x

Hi Lani! I don't know how I managed to miss your post but I did. I have both the bipolar and borderline tags. Though while I was on meds I did pretty well actually and I am not sure about the borderline thing in my case. I do know that urge to cut and how it can be to avoid it. Sometimes it is like an obsession that has a life of its own.

I think doing almost anything to occupy your mind during those times is the best thing or even talking about it to someone you trust. And avoid those things that you might use to cut with. I know in some cases that is easier said then done. I hid mine on purpose and with them out of sight I hope to keep the urges at bay for a while longer. It's been over a month now I am happy to say.

So how are things going?

Emerald