Crimson___
08-31-2006, 06:37 AM
I live with my bf who is very social but whenever he has any one over i feel very self concious and vunerable and find it really hard to speak to any of his friendsd, male and female.
last night when this couple we know came round i couldnt speak to them. i went up stairs and just cried out of fustration then my breathing got worse making me cry more and i got more wound up. this is something i do praticaly every time they or any one else come over. if i try and speak to them i just remember how i ignored them last time so i dont say anything. not that i ignore them out of rudeness i just don't want them to bother about me cuz i'll probably end up crying if i try to explain whats wrong.
any advice on how i can move on from this?
last night when this couple we know came round i couldnt speak to them. i went up stairs and just cried out of fustration then my breathing got worse making me cry more and i got more wound up. this is something i do praticaly every time they or any one else come over. if i try and speak to them i just remember how i ignored them last time so i dont say anything. not that i ignore them out of rudeness i just don't want them to bother about me cuz i'll probably end up crying if i try to explain whats wrong.
any advice on how i can move on from this?

